Saturday, July 25, 2009

Reimei no Arcana -Dawn of the Arcana- [Chapter 4]
Saturday, June 13, 2009

The scene starts with Caesar holding Nakaba and saying, “Nakaba..you’re cute, you..” Startled, Nakaba wakes up and she feels sick. Loki comes in with her breakfast. He greets her a good morning and asks what happened to her [because she probably looks pale]. Nakaba goes back to bed and says that she is just a bit tired because of a nightmare. Nakaba thinks that it is definitely because Caesar hugged her before. She wonders what up with that guy [Caesar]. She hears Ceasar saying, “--Hey.” She covers her ears and thinks that she has suddenly, imagined that guy’s voice. She then looks surprised and looks up to see Caesar standing near her by the bed. He asks if she is feeling unwell. He looks closer and says that her face is red. She quickly moves away and covers herself with a blanket. She exclaims that it is nothing, she is okay. She then turns to looks at him. She asks why he came there. Gesturing to the door, Caesar laughs and exclaims that she’ll be so happy that she’ll cry tears of joy. The door opens and some half-human kids bring in some things – a gown, shoes, some jewelry, etc. With folded arms, Caesar happily exclaims that these are his gifts for her. Blushing a bit, Caesar says that the poor her will look good a bit if she wears them. Nakaba is speechless and asks him if he did that specially for her. “Yes.” “All of it? Are they all new?” “Of course.” To Caesar’s surprise, Nakaba shouts, “Take all of those things back!” Turning around, Nakaba says that it’s a waste of money and she doesn’t need this kind of things. To Nakaba’s surprise, Caesar holds the gown then starts ripping it. He tells her that it is just so like her to totally not know the value of things. Caesar looks away with folded arms [like a kid] as Nakaba shouts that he also shouldn’t rip it. “What are you thinking..bringing those things here?” She wonders if he wants her to wear it so that he’ll laugh at her if it doesn’t suit her or he’s giving them to her so that he can make a fool out of her. “He’s such a detestable guy!”

Loki picks up the torn up gown and tells Nakaba not to be that angry. Nakaba tries to protest but Loki tells her that it is normal for a guy to give things to a girl and since it is from the royal family, it is definitely very exquisite. He takes out a needle and starts sewing the town gown. “But, a guy who wants the girl to dress up how he wants to, that is egoism.” Caesar is surprised and says, “What..” Loki finishes sewing and says, “—But, no matter what, Princess Nakaba is Princess Nakaba, [everything] definitely suits her.” He puts the gown on top of Nakaba to make her see that it suits her. Loki smiles and says, “See.” Nakaba blushes and agrees with him. She thinks that Loki is really nice to her. This made Caesar jealous that he grabs her braided hair and says that poor dress [she’s wearing] still suits her best. This made Nakaba angry that she shouts that it hurts and quit pulling her hair. She then gives him a slap on the face. She shouts that she doesn’t need the gown nor the jewelry so take them back. This surprises Caesar that he leaves her room. Belias is waiting for him outside. He asks Caesar what he is doing. Touching his slapped face, Caesar tells him to shut up. Nakaba goes to Loki and hugs him for comfort. She exclaims to him that she hates Caesar and it is quite puzzling and it is definitely because Caesar is childish. At the throne room, King Conan asks someone if he has already investigated where Nakaba grew up. The man says that just as Conan has thought, Nakaba is Senan’s first princess Titania’s illegitimate daughter. [I guessed her name ^^; In Chinese, it is ‘si-tai-ya’] Because Titania had eloped, this has been quite a scandal before so the royal family didn’t let this become publicly known. The man hasn’t finished his report but the king tells him that is enough and there’s no need to tell him more about it. The man is puzzled. Conan says, that she [Titania] has eloped with a man from that ‘tribe’ then gave birth to a girl. “This thing called fate can really trick [make fun of] people.”

Later on, Caesar wearing a cape is pulling Nakaba to come with him. Nakaba asks what is it now and where are they going. Caesar tells him that they are going street shopping. At the town square, Caesar is walking around with Nakaba to different merchant stores. He has put the hood of his cape on his head so that people won’t recognize him but his necklace + medallion is quite visible. Nakaba is surprised when a merchant calls out to her and says that a beautiful red haired girl such as her suits to wear a red embroidered outfit. Caesar asks if she wants to buy it. Nakaba says she doesn’t need it. Soon, they pass by different merchants selling her shoes, necklace, hair accessory, etc but Nakaba just kept on declining by saying that she doesn’t need them. After a while, Nakaba gloomily thinks that street shopping is too tiring. Caesar says that she declined everything so what does she want. This puzzles Nakaba. She is even more puzzled when Caesar told her that she is quite stubborn. With a slightly troubled look, Caesar asks, “Hey, what should I do..” Nakaba turns around and exclaims that she doesn’t want anything and she doesn’t want him to do anything for her. Caesar is a bit sad about this. In the carriage, the two sit a bit apart from each other in silence as they ride the way back to the castle. Nakaba looks out the window then sees something. She asks the driver to stop. She goes down and Caesar shouts from the carriage what it is. Nakaba picks up a bird [pigeon] and tells Caesar that it is injured. Caesar who is now standing behind her says that it must be caused by some animal. She looks at him and asks, “Can I bring it home?” Caesar is speechless as Nakaba looks at him with a pleading look. He looks away, slightly blushing then says, “Let me think about it, why don’t you try calling my name while asking me.” Nakaba says, “..Ha? ..although I don’t understand..then..Caesar, please.” To her surprise, he smiles and says, “Okay, [as] I promised.” Nakaba blushes a bit then bows while thanking him. Then, the pigeon coos. The two are surprised. Nakaba then smiles and thanks him again. With a bit surprised look, Caesar says, “..like that, just because of that, can actually make you happy..” This surprises Nakaba. He then turns around and says that they should go back. As they ride at the carriage, Nakaba wonders if Caesar gave her that weird outfit, and accompanied her to street shopping just to make her happy. “But, why..? I still..don’t get it.”

Nakaba returns and is greet by Loki who was worried about her since he suddenly can’t find her. He had asked the soldiers and they told him that she went out with Prince Caesar for street shopping. “Did anything happen?” Still holding the pigeon, she says that she is alright. When he asked about the bird, Nakaba tells him that it is injured so she brought it back. He left to get some medical kit just as Nakaba ordered. She goes to the table where Caesar’s gifts are left. She is surprised to notice that the gown has red embroidery. The stones on the rings are red. The color of the shoes is red. The hat is red. She felt like crying. Loki goes back in and says that he has brought the medical kit. He is surprised when Nakaba suddenly hugs him. He asks her why she is crying. Nakaba says, “Because I..it’s the first time..I received this kind of gifts.” [I think] Loki says that it should be suitable for her because those things are made just for her. Narration: “At this time, perhaps I was a bit excited [happy], so I start to forget..forget that this is the enemy’s country. Not long after, something will happen. If only I can foresee it even for a little bit..” At the hallway, Nakaba carries the bandaged pigeon and calls out Caesar’s name. Caesar is walking ahead while Loki is following behind Nakaba. Nakaba shows the bird to Caesar and tells him that it is goint to be well soon. Caesar smiles and says, “Really, that’s good.” Nakaba smiles back and says, “Yes.” Narration: “then, I won’t be doing any kind of smiling towards this person.” Nakaba is surprised when someone calls out her name. Belias is shouting to someone. It is a half-human [sheep?] kid who calls out her name. Nakaba exclaims, “Leith” [Haha, sorry, it is another guesswork name. In Chinese, it is ‘Li-te’. I checked around it is used for calling ‘lite usb’ or ‘leet’ of Fleet. Since ‘Light’ isn’t a usual name, I look at names close to ‘leet’ so it’s Leith for now. ^^;] Nakaba tries to ask why he is there. Before Leith can answer, Caesar holds him up and asks what’s with this little one. Waving his arms, Leith exclaims for him to let go. Belias tells Caesar that half-human will become Nakaba’s attendant and he was brought there from Senan. Caesar drops Leith and says, “Attedant?” Nakaba and Leith call out each other’s name. Leith says that it is because he did his very best. Narration: “This child, is going to turn the gears of fate, a link [chain]...”

I find it amusing that she considers Caesar calling her cute as a nightmare. A very good start for a chapter on how her perception of Caesar changed by the end of the chapter. I think this chapter is just the set-up of what is yet to come since that kid is now introduced = the main cast is complete. The kid is shown in the cover of the magazine before. This chapter is also a set-up of Nakaba letting her guard down and as she mentioned, she forgot that she is in enemy territory so probably what will happen in the future would take her by surprise and from the way she hinted, it seems that she will come to dislike Caesar again or maybe his family or everything about that country. It does seem that Nakaba isn’t used to people being nice to her other than Loki so she thinks that what is Caesar doing has an ulterior motive. She can’t help it since before that hugging scene, he has been teasing her and looking down on her. She didn’t realize that he has already somewhat changed because of her. It seems that she lived a secluded life because she isn’t used to shopping. Well, she isn’t into material things so declining those things one after another can be tiring. Just as Caesar thought, it seems she is hard to please but it really takes simple things to make her happy. A pet bird is enough to make her happy and it doesn’t cost Caesar a single cent. I wonder if that bird pigeon will be their means of communicating later on. =P I think his feelings for her shows through the extent that he would go out of his way just for her to shop in town after she declines his gifts. I think it somewhat shows his perseverance if he wants to achieve or do something. Just as Nakaba mentioned, he does seem to be a bit childish and I think a bit arrogant that is why Nakaba thought he is just trying to pick a fight with her. ^^; I think Caesar needs to get some tips from Loki on how to treat a girl. Loki is also a sweet talker. It seems that he is an all-around man – can fight and even do housework. Those are all his good points and his only ‘bad’ point would be probably just his race. In the last chapter, Nakaba has a change of clothes, then in this chapter, it is Caesar, who looks good in black, by the way. I hope that in the next chapter, Loki will also get a change of clothes ^^ Loki’s true feelings for Nakaba is a bit of a puzzle. Is he supporting her to be with Caesar or not? Nakaba seems to think of him as a ‘brother’ or someone whom she can cry on or tell her feelings. I still think that whom Nakaba will end up with will be the same as Boku wa Kiss de Uso wo Tsuku. This is like a continuation but a different setting. =P Then, the king has finally confirmed his theory about Nakaba. I think it isn’t good for Nakaba since not only she is somewhat whom Conan wanted to eradicate but it turns out, she is just some illegitimate daughter of the princess who eloped. It’s like Senan just gave an ‘unwanted’ princess for their truce. I guess Conan is going to think of some reason for him to kill off Nakaba and maybe, Leith is going to be use for that. It is too much of a coincidence that he is going to be sent there from the enemy country and he knows Nakaba. Also, it turns out that it is Nakaba’s father is from that tribe. It seems that his bloodline is stronger so she inherited the ‘power’ and the hair color. I guess Titania’s family didn’t care that she got killed by the enemy soldiers because she is a disgrace. I wonder if Nakaba’s father is still alive and how did she ends up in the palace if he is still alive. Anyway, if Conan starts to plot some evil machinations against Nakaba, will Caesar side with her or his family? That will be something to look forward to. ^^

Reimei no Arcana -Dawn of the Arcana- [Chapter 3]
Tuesday, May 5, 2009

As Caesar leaves for his duel, Nakaba looks at her hands and wonders why she became so uneasy because of him that she tried to stop him. Caesar is quite pleased as he holds his cape where Nakaba grabbed hold it. He thinks that uneasy expression and look of hers is not bad. “I'll make you watch a Belquat's battle of the knights.” He duels with his brother, Cain. The people are awed by the fight and think it is because it is they are Lord Caesar and Cain. Nakaba is really nervous. Then, Caesar manages to injure Cain's left shoulder. Cain comments that Caesar is quite enthusiastic. “Is it because the red haired princess is watching?” Caesar is a bit puzzled but he just tells his brother to concentrate on the fight. Cain taunts Caesar that there could be something more between that princess and her half-human servant. “They are so close to each other..and both are young. Ha..I empathize with you, I never thought that your princess is committing adultery with a half-human..” This made Caesar angry that he charges at Cain while shouting, “Brother..!” Caesar defeats Cain who has fallen off his horse. Cain can only curse. Caesar tells him, “So, I've told you that you should just concentrate on the fight.” Cain is frustrated.

Nakaba looks out of the tent to see Belias. She asks him if that has determined that guy is the winner. Belias is a bit surprised and says that she doesn't seem to understand but it is Caesar who won. Nakaba says is that so. Caesar is then shouting his challenge to everyone there who would fight against him. Nakaba asks Belias that wasn't Caesar the champion already. “So isn't it finished yet?” Belias says that it is over but that is just for formality but the truth is no one would challenge him. Someone then shouts, “Prince Caesar!” Everyone looks at the commotion to see Loki riding on a horse. Loki shouts for Caesar to have a duel with him to know who is the winner. Nakaba and Belias are surprised to see Loki. A soldier asks the king if he should arrest Loki. Conan tells him to wait. He asks Loki what does he want. Loki says that if he defeats Prince Caesar, he asks to be forgiven of his crime of brandishing his sword in front of His majesty. “And also, let me serve and be at Princess Nakaba's side once again.” After thinking for a while, the king grants his request. A soldier gives Loki a spear. Caesar shouts for them to give Loki an armor. Loki tells him that there is no need for that because if he lost, in the end, he forfeits his life. Nakaba shouts for him to stop for he is still wounded. Loki smiles at her and tells her that it is okay for this duel will end swiftly. This irks Caesar as he shouts for Loki not to be too arrogant. Caesar attacks. During the duel as Loki outmatches Caesar, Caesar thinks, “Sight, hearing, smell, taste and touch. A half-human is superior in all of these aspects. I've given it my best in order to get those things yet he easily becomes superior at it. So I hate half-humans..!” In the end, Caesar has fallen off his horse. A solider is surprised that the duel is over. Caesar is looking depressed as the people are saying that lord Caesar is defeated. They wonder what kind of person is that half-human.

Flashback: Cute, little Caesar is holding a heavy sword. Belias told him that it is dangerous to use that big sword. Caesar shouted for Belias to shut up. He swung the sword on a pole wrapped with rope. His back got hurt and the pole didn't get cut. Caesar dropped the sword and shouted that a kid can't play this kind of game and he doesn't want to play anymore. While walking on the hallway with Belias, Caesar saw a kid half-human easily cutting down the pole with his weapon. Rabbit girl and another cat boy shouted that Robin, dog boy, is really great for cutting it. Robin said that it is so easy that it doesn't seem like training. Caesar then looked at the three kids as they are shouting and having fun. That night, Caesar tried again but when he hit the post, he lost his balance then fell. He cut his right knee. Then he noticed that right palm is also wounded from the sword. He is in tears upon seeing that the pole has no damage on it. His mother called him, together with Belias. His mother told Caesar that she heard that he has been sword training lately. Caesar admitted that he is. She said that his hand is even bandaged. “You do not have to do that.” Caesar tried to say that the half-humans can easily do it but his mother shouted what he is talking about, he really doesn't have any prospect. This outburst surprised Caesar. She shouted at him that he is royalty so there is no need for him to do his best nor emulate half-humans or even commoners. “If the half-humans can do it, then we'll just use them! Royalty has the authority to do so! Royalty can dominate all of them!” Caesar wondered why is this so. “Is it because royalty are nobility? Why do weak people stand [rule] over strong people? Half-humans are obviously very strong. I obviously cannot compete against them.” End Flashback.

In a garden-like place behind the castle, Nakaba, who has changed her clothes to what she normaly wears, runs towards Loki. Nakaba says that it is great that he is alright. She asks him about his wound. Loki says that it is alright. He apologizes for making her worry. Nakaba says that Loki is very strong. Loki says that Caesar is also very strong and Caesar had deliberately lost to him in order to keep his 'promise' with her. Loki then bends down and says, “Oh yes, Princess Nakaba. Can you please give me a kiss?” Nakaba is surprised then she blushes. Loki says that even if he had intruded in the competition and stirred things up but the champion should get her kiss. “Princess Nakaba, I've attained the championship. Please kiss me.” Nakaba is a bit surprised then tells him that is right. “Then, stand up..Loki...” Ceasar is walking around near the place as he wonders out loud where Nakaba went. He is stunned to see Loki and Nakaba kissing. He thinks that in the end, women are like that for they are attracted to stronger men. “In front of different men, they act differently. They are really hard to deal with. That redhead is also that kind of woman.” After they finish the kiss, Nakaba laughs-smile at Loki then she notices Caesar leaving. She goes after Caesar and tells him to wait. Since Caesar is curious as to what kind of alibi she will say, he quickly turns around and asks what is it. Nakaba innocently tells him that he has lost deliberately. This shocks Caesar that he exclaims in disbelief. Nakaba says, “In order for Loki to return to my side...thank you for keeping your word. Caesar.” Caesar is surprised that she called his name. Seeing his expression, Nakaba asks if she was mistaken for Loki was the one who told her. The two look at Loki who tells Caesar, “Please don't have such a depressing look on your face. Just now, I just received Princess Nakaba's 'lucky kiss'.” Thinking that he can't win against Loki, Caesar asks if Loki is just consoling him. “..I've lost and that is all there is to it. It has nothing to do with the promise! I've been fighting seriously!” Nakaba is surprised then says, “Is that so..then, it will be alright if you win next time.” Caesar is surprised and just says, “..next time?” Nakaba is puzzled that she asks, “If you do your best, it's possible that next time, you'll win, right?” Caesar blushes a bit and thinks, “Honestly..I wanted to hear those words. At that time..when my mother told me that I shouldn't do my best, it's because I can't compete against half-humans so my mother wants me give up. But this girl..wants me to do my best.” Looking at her, Caesar asks, “Do you think that I will win?” Nakaba slightly smiles and says, “Who knows.” Caesar is moved by this that he quickly hugs surprised Nakaba. “It isn't Yes and it isn't No. In this vast world, what should I do, in order for this girl to stay at my side?”

Hehe..and Caesar has fallen for her. =P This chapter really changed my opinion on Caesar..he's so cute and he isn't that cocky-arrogant like his father nor his brother. Not only he didn't react violently upon seeing the two kiss, he also showed his vulnerability to Nakaba and Loki. I think as royalty, it will be hard to admit that Loki defeated him fair and square and also Loki seems to be making a move at his 'wife'. Since he isn't interested to be king, I guess that is why he isn't too 'obsess' with his status about being a 'master' to commoners and half-humans whom he is jealous off. I guess being 'jealous' is better than 'belittling' them. ^^;; There's a thin line between admire and jealous, right? Well, I guess Caesar finally has a dream or a goal that he wants to achieve. As for Loki, I wonder if getting the kiss is just an alibi. Is it really just a friendly kiss? Maybe he is thinking that he isn't worthy of Nakaba because of her status as royalty. I'm curious why he lied to Nakaba about Caesar deliberate losing for the sake of the promise. Is it just to protect Caesar's pride or perhaps, he is grateful to Caesar for all he has done? I highly doubt that he actually thought that Caesar will kindly lose just because of the promise. Hehe, I guess now both leading guys got a kiss from the leading lady. =P Anyway, I'm curious where the story will be headed because obviously, Nakaba now has a new ally and that is Caesar. I'm sure the two guys will protect her at all cost against the king who might want to kill her if he knows of her lineage. I'm still hoping for my theory, that these three is going to 'change' the status quo/world, to come true. ^^ Oh ya, what happened with Nakaba's premonition? Maybe Caesar isn't going to be hurt in this duel but later on because I'm sure he will be doing a lot of 'disobeying' later on. Scans by tongyanen for iieye.

Reimei no Arcana -Dawn of the Arcana- [Chapter 2]
Monday, April 20, 2009

Holding his sword on Caesar's throat, Loki tells Nakaba to order him to kill Caesar. Nakaba is surprised to see him. Loki is angry that Caesar dare touch Nakaba with his filthy hands. “Prince of Belquat, don't you think that being killed by a dog is interesting?” Loki swings his sword as Nakaba shouts for Loki. To Loki's surprise, Nakaba dives in between them and pushes Caesar away. Her hair is slightly cut while Caesar just looks surprised. Flustered, Loki says how could she do such a dangerous thing. Nakaba notices the blood on Loki's chest then she shouts for him to stop for she doesn't want to see blood again. Loki is surprised by this. Caesar is speechless as he touches his chest where Nakaba had pushed him away. Then a soldier comes in and says that he has heard some noise inside. He quickly takes out his spear upon seeing Loki there. The soldier charges in then find a sword pointing at him. Holding his sword at the soldier, Caesar tells him to stand still and not move. “You didn't see any person in here. You are not to report this to others.” The soldier looks scared and he says yes. After Caesar dismisses the soldier, Caesar looks at Nakaba and tells her that is their agreement. He sheaths his sword and tells her that he is keeping his word that if she wins the bet, he will pardon that guy's crime. Caesar sits down on the sofa and tells Nakaba that his authority cannot totally pardon that guy so it is better for him to hide for the meantime. Loki seems to be in pain as Nakaba goes to him. To Loki's surprise, Nakaba tells Caesar to let Loki hide out in Caesar's room for if she is the one who hides Loki, she cannot evade [has no alibi] if he is discovered. “If it is you..” Caesar says, “..Ha? Is it okay for you to leave your important dog to me?” Nakaba replies, “I believe in you because you fulfilled your word on the agreement.” She looks at him and Caesar just looks back at her. Then, Nakaba says, “..but, if you dare do something to Loki, I will definitely kill you.” Caesar exclaims, “Ha?! What a dangerous wife. Just relax, I don't find it interesting in bullying a wounded animal. Just quickly get that wound treated.” The two just look at Caesar.

The next day, with a somewhat bored look, Caesar is holding a bowl of water/medicine. He lamely says, “Hey..although I said it that way, but why am I..” [helping out] While treating Loki, Belias tells Caesar to quit standing there and quickly bring that to him. Caesar sweatdrops and shouts, “Okay!” Caesar gives him the bowl and complains why a half-human is lying on his bed. Looking weak, Loki is lying on Caesar's bed. Belias takes the bowl and asks Caesar what of it for half-humans are flexible and with them around, they don't need to suffer great losses/hardships. [= they do the dirty work] Caesar exclaims that he doesn't need the half-humans' help. Then, Belias says that he just remembered that Caesar was bitten by a dog before and even cried out loud so maybe it is because of that trauma. Caesar sweatdrops as he protests that it isn't the reason and it isn't because of the dog, he..[looks down on Loki] Loki just has this cute surprised look. Nakaba opens the door and asks how Loki is doing. Loki calls out her name. Nakaba asks if his wound is okay. Loki says it is okay. Caesar asks if she is ignoring him. [Obviously yes =P] Loki touches Nakaba's face and tells her not to have that kind of expression because half-humans' wounds heal quickly and soon, he will be okay. Nakaba happily touches his hand and smiles. Loki smiles back. Caesar looks at them in surprise. [Jealous?] He quickly turns around and tells Belias that he will leave the rest to him. Caesar walks out of the room and into the hallway. An older man tells him that his wife frequently goes to his room and it seems their feelings for each other are good. Looking a little flustered, Caesar says that it isn't so. Then, he meets a long black-haired lady. Caesar asks Louise what does she want. Louise didn't reply so Caesar says that if she has nothing to say then he is leaving. Louise shouts his name then hugs him from behind. Caesar tells her to let him go because she is already his brother's fiancĂ©e. She asks him if he doesn't care if she marries his brother, Cain. “If you don't have the backing of my father's commanding army [or her father is the commander of an army], you cannot ascend to the throne..!” Caesar removes her hands off him and tells her that he doesn't aspire for the throne because he is only the second prince. Louise tells him that if it is about one's bloodline, Caesar is more qualified for the high position because Cain's mother is a commoner. “What are you concerned about..” Caesar tells her to shut up for he doesn't want to fight with his brother.

His mother arrives and asks Caesar what nonsense he is talking about. “You should aspire for the throne, Caesar. You are suitable to become king.” Caesar starts walking away and says, “I have told you many times that brother will become king.” While his mother shouts for him, Caesar left the two women. Irritated, Caesar thinks what was that about him being suitable to become king. He shouts out loud, “What do they know? What do they care? They are the ones who want the throne!” He takes out his sword and waves it in the air. “I do not want the throne!” He then puts down his sword. “Then, I..in the end, what do I want? Why..do I feel so empty..?” Later on, Nakaba brings in some food and water for Loki in Caesar's room. Caesar informs her that there will be a jousting competition soon as a game in celebration of their marriage. “You better dress up and become beautiful to your utmost ability. The champion will get a reward from His Majesty the King and the new bride's..your congratulatory kiss.” Blushing a bit, Nakaba exclaims her surprise about it. Loki looks sad but didn't say anything. [Jealous, too?] Nakaba notices this and asks Loki what the matter is. While holding his bandaged wound, Loki looks away and says that it is nothing. Outside, Cain is tending to his horse. Caesar calls out to his brother. Cain tells him that he might have to fight against him in the competition. Caesar says that he won't lose. Cain says that Caesar's quite strong [willed?]. Cain then says that he won't lose because the champion gets to kiss Caesar's princess. Looking bored, Caesar says that he isn't interested in that. Cain laughs and says that lately, Caesar's relationship with his wife is quite good. Caesar tells him that it isn't true and it is just a rumor. Cain says, “That dull woman..dresses really strange, I won't even thought of having her. Ah, that's right, she's so childish.” Ceasar isn't happy about what he said. Ceasar replies, “..Brother. Did you already have Louise? Then, that should be very soft/gentle.” Cain looks surprised as Ceasar shows his arrogant look again. “Ah, then, quickly marry her...I'll anticipate the competition.” Caesar leaves and Cain looks really angry as he shouts Caesar's name.

On the day of the competition, accompanied by a couple of soldiers, Caesar walks with his horse when an older man happily exclaims to him that his wife has already prepared. He also exclaims that his wife is really beautiful. Caesar scoffs off what he said as he says, “Ha? That red hair? Stop kidding me. That woman doesn't have any single bit of sex appeal so you don't need to flatter me.” The older man tries to tell him that he wasn't flattering him. Caesar opens the door of the tent and calls out to Nakaba to ride on his horse. He is then stunned to see how beautiful Nakaba is. Nakaba's hair is down and she is wearing a dress. Nakaba says that in order for him not to say that she's ugly, she did her best to become like that. She complains that it isn't easy to walk in that dress. Caesar exclaims that it is just so-so. Nakaba tells him not to say it out loud since she can also hear it. During the competition, Nakaba and Caesar sit in the center tent. Commoners and half-humans are cheering. They watch along with the royal couple as Cain is fighting with some guy. Noticing that Nakaba is looking away, Caesar tells her to watch the competition because she will give the champion a kiss. Nakaba says that it is boring for if they have excess money to prepare for such a grand event, they should just have spent the money on other important things. Caesar exclaims that she doesn't know anything for this national sport is a must. “Because of the long year fighting, the country is feeling fatigued. In order for them to be active, this sport is a must.” Caesar explains that the decorations of the nobles in that place are done by the town's artisans. The jewelers sell their goods there and if the royal family uses them, then that store's reputation will improve thus the business will become more prosperous. Also, those who are in the food and drinks business will earn more money there. This way, the money will continuously circulated around. He says that one time help is really nothing to them. [I might got this part wrong but I think he is saying that during these events, there is business for the commoners and it will help them since the nobles buy their stuff – the wealth is distributed among everyone though it is only once in a while so it doesn't really help the commoners' situation.]

Caesar looks at Nakaba and says, “For someone who punched me to rebuke me, it seems that you don't know much about politics. Could it be that there is no such sport in your country because it is very poor?” Nakaba tells him that they also have that sport. Looking a bit sad, Nakaba says, “But..I'm not allowed to watch.” A scene of Nakaba looking out the window. “A red haired princess isn't allowed for other people to see because she is the royal family's shame. Yes..that is how it is. But I also don't like it, the horses are too pitiful.” Nakaba watches the jousting again while Caesar looks away as if he doesn't want Nakaba to remember those sad memories. While watching the jousting, Nakaba then 'sees' Caesar being stabbed at the back by a spear. She is then surprised when Caesar is pulling her hair and asks if she was sleeping. “I'm going to fight against my brother next, you better watch intently.” Caesar walks away but Nakaba quickly calls for him to wait and not to go. She grabs his cape to stop him as she wonders what she is doing but still, she has that bad premonition. Caesar is a bit surprised. Then, he smiles and blushes a bit. He says, “Don't worry, I will let you, a red-haired princess, watch this Belquat sport.” Caesar walks away. Nakaba just holds on to the chair while watching him leave. King Conan is watching them/her.

This chapter changed my opinion on Caesar. I now think him as a 'cute' person. Actually, he reminds me of Shinobu in Boku wa Kiss de Uso wo Tsuku. =P As expected, the author already 'punish' him for his arrogance. I really like the part wherein he has to help in Loki's recovery. Aw..his poor pride. Belias even embarrassed him that he hates dogs that is why he is treating Loki that way. =P Of all the royal family, he is the most easy person to change as in he isn't that bad after all. I think it is really commendable that he kept his part of the agreement. He even agreed to let Loki stay at his room. Wow. His jealousy of Loki has already started to build up upon seeing how close Loki is with Nakaba. Actually, the three are like the three main characters in the author's previous series. Caesar isn't ambitious for the throne though there seems to be a rivalry between him and his brother. The rivalry is more about Louise rather than the throne. Since Caesar is bored and stuff, I think this is the reason why he isn't stirring things up with his brother. I think he only made Cain angry because he is bad-mouthing Nakaba. I think his emptiness can easily be filled up by Nakaba and Loki. Actually, I'm now thinking of the lines of King Arthur. And also, I find some similarities with the characters to the characters of Vampire Knight. I think with Louise, the love triangle is somewhat 'solved' and she is in the tarot cards and first color spread so she could become part of the 'main' cast. There is still one other character who haven't appeared yet who was shown in the cover before – a blond-sheep kid. I would totally love it if the three are going to change the country for the better or even unite it. The charismatic future? king [royalty], the fortuneteller queen [commoner] and the strong knight [half-human]. ^^ Scans by Tongyanen for iieye

Reimei no Arcana -Dawn of the Arcana- [Chapter 1]
Thursday, April 2, 2009

In a balcony which faces a lot of people, the man takes off a lady's hat. The lady says that today, she becomes the enemy's posession. Everyone is shock that she has red hair because the royalty should have black hair. The man waves at the people to be quiet. He grabs the lady's braid and kisses it. He says that red is okay for it is like the passionate love he has for his country. The people cheers their congratulations to Prince Ceasar. The lady thinks that no one realized that he just grabbed her hair forcefully nor do they know that this is just so that peace will continue and she isn't really welcome there. She is like a sacrificial lamb..when will her blood be spilled. A small country is divided into two. On the north is Senan while on the south is Belquat. The calamity started ever since that small island has become two countries and the fighting continued on for 200 years. Curiously enough, the two countries have the same distortion wherein all black hair are deemed to become the royalty and they all belong to the ruling class. Red, yellow and brown hair are commoners. Half-humans who have ears and tails are inferior people who are designated as servants. Then, those people [monster-type] whose five senses are quite superior become the soldiers who are made to fight each other. Belquat has nice weather and fertile land so it is rich and wealthy whereas Senan's weather is cold because of the snow season that the country is poor and its military is weak. There is a river flowing downstream between the countries so the people of Senan would sometimes block the river or even put poison so that it will be cause a setback on the people of Belquat. In every war, the two countries will sometimes have some dialogue in order to have some peace though this usually doesn't last for more than five years but, they never learn, they still keep on doing it and yet, there is no lasting peace. So, as proof of peace [this time?], Senan's first princess Nakaba is given to marriage to Belquat's second prince Caesar. Early on, the royal people already have this discussion among themselves, when would the red-haired princess who was sent to Belquat be killed?

After the introduction, the two newly weds head back inside. Caesar grabs her hair again and says that he was given such an unexpected thing. Nakaba looks straight at him and asks him if grabbing a lady's hair is his style. Caesar tells her not to misunderstand things for she is just his posession. A half-human shouts for Caesar to let her go. Nakaba calls him, Loki. Loki tells her that she looks good in her wedding gown. Caesar did let go of her hair and calls Loki, an inferior . He says that Nakaba just pretends to be important when her companion is just an inferior. He taunts them by saying that it seems that Loki is a 'dog' based on his ears and he is a good match with the red haired princess. Loki draws his knife at Caesar. Suddenly, solders come out and point their swords at Loki. A long haired man calls Loki stupid for if he killed Caesar there, he would be sentenced to death..no, tortured to death. Loki is unfazed as he tells Caesar that he is being rude and he would not let it pass for Caesar to insult his master whether he is Belquat's prince nor Princess Nakaba's husband. Caesar calls him an untrained dog and it seems he is looking for his death. Nakaba looks at the long haired guy then she calls Loki. She gives Loki a slap on the face and tells him to apologize for being rude. Loki obeys that he bows down on the floor and apologizes. Caesar laughs that he is surprised by that and he didn't think that she knows royal etiquette since she is a red-haired. His happiness is cut short when Nakaba gives him a punch in the face. Nakaba tells Loki that it is her responsibility to rebuke her husband. Nakaba tells shocked Caesar that he is looking down on Loki and she thinks that the kind of discrimination by the whole country is a joke. Pissed off, Caesar stands up and strangles Nakaba. He tells her to be careful since it is easy for him to send her head back to her homeland. Nakaba tells him to do what he wants for he should know what kind of treatment she has endured because of her hair which he also dislikes. “This whole country and that other country..for me, it's just the same. And, it's only the place where I die is different.” Caesar let her go. Her eyes seem to dilate then she holds her head. Loki shouts for her then catches her as she faints. Caesar just says that she is really quite an unpredictable princess for hitting him then fainting. He doesn't like to see her red hair so he orders for her to be taken to her room.

Caesar and his men walk away silently then the long haired guy suddenly laughs. Caesar calls out Berias' name. Berias laughs and says that Caesar was just punched and he is willing to just sit this one down. He apologizes and says that princess is quite interesting. Caesar just says yes though essentially, the two of them [he and Nakaba] are just the country's instruments. In the room, Nakaba wakes up and finds herself on the bed. Loki is holding a tray of food and drink and says that she is awake. Nakaba says that she has fainted and it seems she had a dream. Nakaba laments why she is so weak when normally, she is okay. Loki tells her that she is definitely just tired from just recently coming to a strange country. He says that he brought something nice. He shows her a small candy. Nakaba is really happy to see that kernel candy that she quickly eats it and says that it is sweet. Loki asks if it is delicious. Nakaba says that it is. Loki smiles and says that's good. Nakaba then touches his face and apologizes for hitting him. She hugs him and says that it is great that he is there with her because in the whole country, she only has Loki. Loki slightly smiles and pats her head. He tells her that there is a banquet where the king will participate in so she should go change her clothes. Nakaba tells him that she doesn't want to wear the clothes from that place because it is uncomfortable. She says that she wants to wear her own clothes. Loki obliges. At the banquet, a short haired man asks Caesar that his princess hasn't arrive yet. Caesar tells his brother that she isn't a princess but a hostage. While wearing their own clothes, Nakaba, together with Loki, enters. A woman shouts at Nakaba for wearing those poor clothes when his majesty is coming.

Caesar tells his mother to let it pass for it is just a small matter because Nakaba has just arrived in this country and she is uneasy at such an unfamiliar place. He laughs that her country is so poor that what she is wearing is already their best formal clothes. Loki sits Nakaba in her seat. She thinks that she is already used to this being look at with scorn, ridicule, etc yet she will be strong, at least for herself. Then, the king arrives. He looks at Nakaba and says 'Red hair'. He is surprised upon seeing her clothes and asks what is with that. Loki tells King Conan that it was he who prepared it for her. Nakaba is surprised by this. Conan suddenly unsheathes his sword and slashes Loki. Everyone is shock by what happened. Holding his bleeding chest, Loki asks why he is so agitated by it. Conan is angry over what he said. Nakaba goes to Loki and shouts to the king that she was the one who wanted to wear that. The king orders for his soldiers to take Loki out and chop him into pieces. Nakaba is scared for Loki. He whispers to her to forgive him for momentarily leaving her side. Loki takes out his two swords and attacks a soldier. Taking one of the soldiers hostage, Loki disappears in the dark. The king calls Loki a beast for being able to move like that even after getting that kind of injury. Nakaba is shaking upon seeing Loki's blood on the floor. It seems that she has seen it before. This blood on the snow ground. Then, her eyes dilates. Caesar asks her what is the matter. Nakaba sees Conan saying that clan will bring disaster so kill them all. To Caesar's surprise, Nakaba faints. She wonders what is that scene she just saw.

Flashback: Young Nakaba called out to a long black haired woman as Mama and asked where Loki is. Her mother complained that Nakaba is looking for Loki again and not her. She said that Nakaba really likes Loki. Her mother calls out to Loki that Nakaba is looking for him. Young Loki entered with a bowl of something. Nakaba happily wants to touch his soft ears. To Loki's surprise, Nakaba's mother is also touching his ear saying that she also wants to touch it. Then, some kids enter telling Loki to teach them. Loki read some books to the kids. Nakaba is clinging on him while her mother happily watched over them. Elsewhere, Conan ordered his men to destroy a clan because they will cause a calamity. One of his men tried to protest because that power [can be of use] but Conan told him to be quiet and weeds should be exterminated. Back at the village, Loki is carrying Nakaba and said that they are heading out. Nakaba's mother told them to wait and put on a thick blanket on Nakaba. She said that it is cold so Nakaba shouldn't catch cold. She then put a scarf on Loki. Loki thanked her. Nakaba's mother happily told the two to have fun. Loki is playing with the kids as they build a snowman. Pointing to the village, one of the kids told Loki that a lot of horses are heading towards their village. Loki carried Nakaba back to the village. He is shock to see the people are being massacred by the soldiers. Looking ill, one of the soldiers, who is ready to kill Loki, apologized and said that it is the orders of the Belquat king. Nakaba's mother jumped between them that she ended up being slashed. Her blood splattered on Loki and Nakaba's faces. She told Loki to quickly escape and bring Nakaba to the capital and find her father. She gave Loki a necklace before she fell down. The soldier lamented about rarely seeing a beautiful woman and now, she got killed. He commented that in such a remote village, it is rare to see a precious item. Loki quickly took out his knife and stabs the soldier. He is in tears. A soldier shouted that there is someone there. Loki quickly ran off with Nakaba. He then saw the other kids dead in the snow. He just kept on running until they arrive in some cave in the mountains. Inside, Nakaba asked him where is her mother. Loki wiped her face and said that there is blood. Nakaba also pointed out that his face also has blood. Loki started crying as he hugged Nakaba. End flashback.

Nakaba wakes up crying and she wonders if it is a dream or the past. She says no matter what it is, her heart is aching so much that it hurts. Elsewhere, Loki is holding his chest. He then laughs out loud and thinks, “So that was Belquat's king.” He says that it seems that the king is totally shock upon seeing the clothes of the clan whose 'power' he fears. “That 'power' is awakened because of you--!!” 'Time's Arcana' is the ancient secret power that transversing time and space which can enable one to see the past, future and the truth. Walking at the hallway, Nakaba looks out the window. She is surprised when Caesar asks her what she is looking at. Nakaba says that it is nothing. Caesar asks if she is waiting for her dog. He tells her that he won't be coming back since he is already hacked into pieces as his punishment. Walking away while he is following her, Nakaba says that Loki will come back. Caesar asks her how about they have a bet and that is, if Loki didn't return tonight, he is going to kill her. Caesar tells her it is easy to kill her and he doesn't welcome a red haired bride. He walks away and tells her to wait in his room until dawn and she should pray that her dog returns. Later that night, sitting on a bench in his room, Caesar tells her that she is too slow [in coming] and asks if she is afraid. Nakaba tells him that she forgot to ask if Caesar will die if she wins the bet. Caesar says that he won't die but if that guy dare come back then he'll forgive him of his crime of rebellion and perhaps allow Loki to come back into the city. Nakaba says that she is relieved to hear that. She takes out a [dog] whistle and blows on it. Caesar asks what she just did since he didn't hear a sound. Nakaba smiles and says that he won't understand.

Then, Caesar pulls her hair and said that he is displeased since he is his wife and yet she depends on some other guy. Nakaba just looks at him and asks him what he is saying since earlier, he was taunting her red hair. Caesar tells her that it is because everyone is shouting that. To her shock, Caesar suddenly kisses her. He tells her that this is the first wedding night for the two countries that had good relations. He kisses her again but she tells him to stop. He tells her that he is that country's prince and there is nothing that he cannot attain. He is about to kiss her neck when Nakaba grabs her knife and slashes his face. Holding out her knife, she tells him, “So what if you are a prince. There are also things that you cannot attain. I will become that thing that you cannot attain no matter how you think of wanting it.” Caesar touches his small wound and says that she is really not cute. He asks her if she knows how stupid she is for pointing a knife at him. The two stare at each other. He then notices that her hand that is holding the knife is shaking. He then bends down to her and says that she does have a side of her that's cute since her hand is shaking. She attacks him but he quickly grabs the sword on the table to block it. Nakaba is quite emotional that she just charges and swings her sword at Caesar but Caesar can easily evade her attacks. Caesar laughs that she is strong even if she is a woman. Caesar grabs her wrist that holds the knife then kisses her. He then kisses her again that she tries to push him away. He holds her face towards him but now, he gives her a french kiss. This made Nakaba drop her knife and bend down on the floor. She looks flustered. Then, Caesar finds a knife at his throat. It is Yoki who says, “Princess Nakaba, may I beseech thee. Let the next order be..for me to kill him.”

Nice ^^ Thankfully, the story isn't that difficult to summarize as I expected. If it weren't for the fantasy, medieval setting, this would be like a love triangle of guy-girl-childhood friend + forced marriage. Someone in BW said that the story is like a game. It made me think so from dating sim, the author now goes into rpg. =P I think it is quite rare to see a first chapter of a series to be composed of 100 pages, usually it's around 50 pages. ^^; I would really want Nakaba to end up with Loki but then, in shoujo, usually the guy who gets to kiss the girl first is the winner. Anyway, because of her previous series showed how the lead guy is made to suffer a bit for his stolen kiss and playfulness, I'm rest assured that Caesar is going to get his 'punishment' no matter what. ^^ I think it would be interesting for them to kidnap him and made him suffer so that it will temper his arrogant personality. I guess his pride took a blow when Nakaba sincerely believes that Loki will come for her that is why he suddenly kisses her and stuff especially since Loki is thought to be inferior. I actually wanted what Nakaba said to come true – she will be something that he really wants but he cannot have her.

I really like Nakaba because she is really strong. It's rare to see girls punching arrogant guys though she has succumbed to his torrent kissing. ^^; It would be nice though if she can really fight later on and not just some girl who has a weapon but always ends up being a damsel in distress like in the other series. It seems that they still do not know of her power. I think she is the daughter of a royalty and a commoner. I do think that peace marriage is just a farce for they aren't really sincere since the Senan country sent a half-commoner princess while Belquat just let the second prince to marry her..why not the first one, unless of course, he is already married. I also like Loki though he seems a bit too reckless because he keeps on agitating people that I fear that he might really end up dead. Good thing that he is strong, though. About that flashback, for some reason, it reminded me of Vampire Knight when Yuuki's parents are murdered ^^;; Lastly, about the premise of the story, it reminds me of the caste system in India wherein one is 'segregated' to a group based on one's lineage and here, people discriminates based on their hair color and features. It's like a childish way of discriminating people though. ^^; I can actually already guess the ending and that is somehow, Nakaba is going to unite the country using her powers and probably the help of those two. =P Scans by tongyanen for iieye.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Acknowledging your feelings and sharing it unconditionally...
is LOVE...

Fighting for what would really make you happy...
is COURAGE...

Letting go of what you had once had if it already belongs to another...
is RESPECT...

Knowing what to do...
is WISDOM...

But doing what wisdom dictates...
is a CHALLENGE...
Everyday, find out who you are and be that...

Decide which comes first and do that...

Discover your strengths and use them wisely...

Learn not to compete with others because no one else is in contest of being you...

YOU are fearfully and wonderfully made and there's only one YOU in the world...
Sometimes...

We put too much passion on the biggest dreams and priorities in life...

that we fail to love the smallest pleasures from simple things...

we search so much for the right choices...

for the right paths to walk through...

for the right time...

and for the right reasons...

but life isn't about searching for the things that can be found...

it is about letting the unexpected happen...

and finding things you never searched for...

NEW COLLEGE DICTIONARY...

ALLOWANCE - force that motivates you to go to school

BONUS - the key to pass the exam

ID - alternative ruler to draw a straight line

STUDYING - causes sleepiness faster than a sleeping pill

UNIFORM - where you wipe your wet hands after going to the washroom

TOMORROW - deadline

CLINIC - home of best actors & actresses

BREAK - most enjoyable subject

BALLPEN - device used to draw something on the desk

NERD - bestfriend during exams

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

a Tagalog post...

dapat kahapon pa ako mag-uupdate
kya lang for some reason, wala akong internet
kaya eto ako ngayon
Be prepared for a long post...


Sa wakas, nakaenrol na din ako
6 units nga lang
grabe nakakapagod
Gumising ako ng mga 830 kahapon ng umaga
Uminom ng gatas, nag-toothbrush, naligo, nagbihis
punta ng Mapua
pagdating ko dun
anak ng tinapa, walang tao sa registrar
anung petsa na?!
no choice ako kundi maghintay
biglang kong naisipan na i-check ang ibang departments
pumunta ako sa CHE-CHM dept
tinanong ko kung may offer silang Organic Chemistry this term
yung pang MSE which is 2 units lang, wala
pero may open, pang-CHE, 3 units nga lang
sabi nung secretary pwede daw ako dun
ipa-equivalent course ko na lang daw sa registrar
kaya ayon, binigyan ako ng paper na nakasulat yun
pagbalik ko sa regisrar, wala pa din tao
mga 11 30 na yun, e maglalunch break sila ng 12 noon
nagugutom na ako
buti nalang dumating si Angel at Carl
Yinaya nila ako kumain, syempre sama ako
kumain kami sa Faustina's
first time ko dun
masarap pala pagkain dun
makakain nga ulit sa susunod
pagkatapos nmin kumain, maaga pa
mga 12:30 pa lang ata yun
eh 1 pm pa magbubukas sa registrar
sabi nila tambay na muna ako sa tambayan ng SCA
ka-organization ko nga pala si Angel at Carl pero di na ako active
pagdating namin dun, nandun din yung ibang members
naghihintayan pala sila dahil ppunta silang Tayabas, Quezon para sa leadership training
nakausap ko si Darren na former blockmate ko na naka-LOA (leave of absence) ngaun
pinipilit nila siya sumama
kaya join naman ako, kunwari kasama ako hahaha
pinilit ko din sya pero iitry daw niya, wala sya pera
anyway
tumambay ako dun hanggang mga 1:15
pag-alis ko sa tambayan pumunta ako sa EMSE dept nmin
kinuha ko yung paper para maiopen na yung Mineralogy subject
diretso ng registrar
in an instant, may 3 units na ako, yay!
tapos yung Organic Chemistry naman
kaya lang may kulang pala
dapat may official document na pirmado sa CHE-CHM department na allowed ung pag-equivalent course
kaya bumalik ulit ako sa CHE-CHM para magpapirma
pagbalik ko sa registrar, ok na
inadd na ung subject ko
buti nalang hindi conflict sa schedule
eh di may 6 units na ako
tapos pumunta ako sa IE-EMG dept
tinanong ko kung open na ung Engineering Management
sabi nung secretary, kailangan niya yung list ng students na kukuha nun
eh wala sa akin, na kay Carlo pala
eh di tinext ko sya, tagal magreply
kaya naisip ko sa pasukan nalang yun
pina-finalize ko na schedule ko
tapos nagbayad na ako
weee, tapos na ako magenrol
tamang- tama nagreply na si Carlo
nasa school pala siya, nagkita kami
mukhang kararating lang
tapos nakita pa namin si Kuya Evan at Kuya Allen
kukuha din sila ng EMG kaya pinasulat din namin dun sa list
ipinasa na namin ni Carlo yung list sa IE-EMG dept
kaya lang di pa daw maoopen yun nun day na un
kaya ayun, sa pasukan na talaga yun
anyway, at least, nakaenrol na ako
papasok ako this term
nagtatanong siguro kayo kung bakit 3 subjects lang ang makukuha ko
dahil yun lang ang pwede kong kunin
hay buhay
hirap talaga sa Mapua lalo na sa department namin
bahala na


actually, 2nd time ko na pumunta sa school para magpaenroll
Nung Friday, pumunta na ako school
tapos yung mga offered na subjects this term hindi ko pa pwedeng kunin
suggestion ni Ma'am Fernandez, magpa-change curriculum na ako ng pang batch 2007
oo naman ako
naghintay ako sa school hanggang mga 2 pm
di talaga dumadating registrar namin
kaya sabi ko sa Monday na nga lang
kasama si Kat, pumunta na kami SM Manila para kumain
tamang-tama naman nakasalubong namin si Keziah pabalik ng school
at dahil ang reason kung bakit sya babalik ng school ay kami,
sumama na siya samin sa SM
kumain kami sa KFC
tapos tumambay lang
nagkwentuhan
hinintay namin sina Allan at Shid dahil pag-uusapan yung outing
tapos naglibot kami sa SM
dapat kasi bibili ng laptop si Keziah, eh hindi pa negtetext yung tatay niya
ako naman bumili ng external hard drive at screen protector
kahit papano nabawasan na yung listahan ng mga bibilhin ko
yung hard drive Buffalo ang brand, 3 995 yung 320GB
ang saya ko, bumilis ng konti ang laptop ko dahil nabawasan na ng laman
napapaisip tuloy ako kung maguupgrade pa ako ng RAM
mukhang di na kailangan
mga past 5 pm na, nasa school pa sila Allan
hindi pa kasi dumadating ung prof na hinihintay nila
naghintay pa kami konti
nun medyo madilim na tinext ko na si Allan na uuwi na kami
nag-sorry siya
ok lang yun, enjoy naman eh


sunod na araw ay Sabado
walang magawa, sa bahay lang
after lunch, sabi ng tatay ko maglakad lakad daw ulit kami sa likod ng MOA after dinner
banat naman ako, "San tayo kakain?"
sabi niya sa bahay lang daw pero bumigay din
tumawag siya bandang mga 7 pm
kain daw kami sa Jade Palace
pumunta kasi siya ng office para tapusin yung monthly report niya
umalis kami sa bahay mga past 8 pm
kumain sa Jade Palace
nakakita pa kami ng artista
nandun si Joey Marquez kasama yung anak niyang si Jeremy at yung isang pa niyang anak kay Alma Moreno na hindi ko kilala
pagkatapos kumain, pumunta na kami sa likod ng MOA
Seaside Boulevard ata tawag dun
naglakad lakad lang kami habang nagkwekwentuhan
tapos kumain ng ice cream
pinagpawisan ako kakalakad
ang daming tao
tuwang tuwa ang nanay ko dun sa mga batang nasa loob ng bola
para silang mga hamster hahaha
yung hamster(?) sa Bolt, basta yung nasa loob ng transparent na bola
may ganung palaruan dun
sabagay, nakakatuwa nga naman
after ng family bonding time, umuwi na kami
bagong story naman pagdating namin sa bahay


pagdating namin sa bahay
may pagala galang tuta sa harap ng gate namin
chocolate brown ang kulay
ang cute kaya lang madumi
nakakaawa, baka masagasaan
kay kinuha nalang ng tatay ko
amin nalang daw tutal mukhang wala naman may ari
weee, may pet na ako
pero mas gusto ko pa din rabbit, narealize ko na takot pa din ako sa aso
ginawan siya ng higaan at itinimpla ng gatas
naubos niya yung gatas
sabi ng tatay ko Snickers daw pangalan niya
kung nagtataka kayo kung bakit Snickers, yun ay dahil Snickers ang pangalan ng 2 una naming mga aso although di ko na sila naabutan
si Snickers 1 ay namatay
si Snickers 2 naman bigla nalang daw nawala
so technically, ang tutang ito ay si Snickers 3
magdamag nagpapansin si Snickers 3
ayaw patulugin ang kuya ko
naninibago siguro kaya umiiyak
mga 3 am na ako natulog at nung mga oras na yun ay naririnig ko pa siyang nag-iingay
paggising ko kinabukasan
hala! wala na siya
nakatakas daw
palibhasa sa garahe kasi siya linagay
eh may butas dun sa baba ng gate
natural makakalusot yun dun
sayang talaga
kala ko may pet na ako
pero medyo relieved din ako dahil
RABBIT ANG GUSTO KO!!!
ngayon, balik na ako sa pangungulit sa tatay at kuya ko na bilhan ako ng rabbit
weeeee ^_^


balik na ako ngayon sa anime fandom
ang tagal kong di nakapanood ng anime
nakahabol na ako sa episodes ng Bleach
kaya lang fillers ulit yung mga susunod na episodes
stop uli ako sa Bleach
tinatapos ko naman ngayon idownload ang Gundam 00
last episode na nung Sunday
di ko pinapanood yung mga naunang downloaded episodes
gusto ko kasi dirediretso
natapos ko na panuoring ang Code Geass R2
sabi ko na nga ba may binabalak si Lelouch nung ideclare niya na siya ang bagong emperor ng Britannia
di ako makapaniwalang umiyak ako sa ending
waaaaaaa
naaawa ako kay Lelouch
grabe yung pinagdaanan niya
at least nagkabati at nagkaintindihan sila ni Suzaku
and peace returned sa kanilang lahat
bumalik na ang D Gray Man manga, yay!
ang tagal ng hiatus ng mangaka nun
at si Allen, I think isa talaga siyang Noah
kala niya di siya masasaktan nung sinaksak niya yung sarili niya ng Crown Belt
pero baliktad, may ibang personality ang lumabas with the same manner of speaking ng Millenium Earl
gusto ko na makita next chapter


sa Asian fandom naman wala masyado
pinagpapatuloy ko lang ang pagdownload ng Mago Mago Arashi
gusto ko ang mga shows ng Arashi
pero hindi mga kanta nila
yun lang


siguro nagtataka kayo kung bakit Tagalog ito
wala lang, trip ko lang
hirap mag-english eh
hahahahahahahaha
Ja ne...











Sunday, March 22, 2009

I passed everything...

I seriously thought I was gonna fail
But I managed to pass everything


I've been worrying about my subjects last term
cause I got really low scores in quizzes
I've already accepted that I'd fail in analytical chemistry lec
but near the end of the term, it gave me some hope
my final grades for the 3rd term are:
CHM110 2.75
CHM200L 2.75
MEC203 2.50
MSE114 2.25
Gen. Weighted Average 2.56

I'm totally satisfied with my grades
I was expecting get 3.00 for all my subjects
but that did not happen
I guess I was lucky ^_^


My dad arrived yesterday afternoon from Singapore
He bought a cute little red bag for my mom but nothing for me
at least he came back home safe
anyway, we went out for dinner
we ate in a chinese restaurant called Emerald Palace
we ordered camaron rebosado, fish lips soup, pancit canton, sweet and sour fish fillet, spareribs in salt and pepper and vegetables
the food was sooo delicious
after the meal, we went to seaside boulevard behind SM Mall of Asia
we just walked there while chatting
then we ate ice cream and went home tired
it was really a fun time with my family


since classes are over, I don't have much to talk about
I have a one month vacation
and I'm still thinking how to spend it
I'm planning an overnight swimming right now with my friends
we haven't decided who's going and where it will be held
so organizing is taking quite a time
well, what's important is we enjoy ourselves since some of them are graduating already and this will be their last outing


not much about the fandoms
NEWS have a new single called "Koi no ABO (?)"
I think it'll be releases 29th of April
all I've been doing recently is watch anime and Arashi videos
I'm getting into the Arashi fandom ^_^


I've nothing to write anymore so
Ja...

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Almost Over...

One more final exam
and I'll say bye bye to the 3rd term


I had my finals for Mechanics last Tuseday
after the exam, my prof checked our papers and computed our grades
so after about an hour, the class already knew their standing
my score in the finals was 55/100
and after the computations, I ranked first in the class
my overall grade was 57 %
the passing grade was 60 (although our prof can still lower it down if he wants to)
so technically, I failed
but since I'm first, he said he'll pass me
Yay!
Lady luck is on my side ^_^
I'm happy with just a grade of 3.00
I have one less worry
I hope he decides to pass all 5 of us
but if not, at least give them 7.00 for incomplete so they won't fail
after the exam, there's still 2 hours left of class time
one of my classmates brought his laptop
so we just watch "Kung Fu Panda"
I had so much fun
it was so cute and funny
he never realized that he was adopted
I mean where in the world can you see a swan (?) father and his son is a panda
that's just ridiculous
anyway, it's one of the few animated movies that I liked


I've already accepted that I'll fail analytical chemistry lecture
my first 2 quizzes were really low
and it would be impossible to catch up
just when I've decided that all hope is gone, something really unexpected happened
I received the results of my 3rd quiz last Wednesday and guess what?!
I PASSED!!!
my score was 69/100
My resolve that I'll fail was all crushed (resolved to fail?!what kind of resolve is that?!)
and I was having my last quiz in that subject last Friday
more signs of hope was given to me
there was one problem where the correct final answer was written
I'm not sure if it was a typo or my prof really intended for it to be there
when I first answered it, I got it wrong
then when I was double checking my answers, I realized that I miscalculated that one
I computed the figures again and whoa!!!
I GOT IT CORRECT!!!
my tension is up again
it seems that He wants me to pass
but I don't want to get my hopes up so much
because if I see a 5.00 (failing grade) for that, I'll feel really disappointed and depressed
I don't want to feel that way
well, there's still the finals in Wednesday and I'll study hard for it
I'll do my best!
as for the laboratory counterpart, I'm 100% sure I'll pass
so no problems


Last Friday, I cooked again after a long time
I cooked Carbonara and toasted bread for dinner
it was sooo delicious
(yep, I'm proud of my cooking and baking skills, everything I make is yummy)
even my brother who is not fond of white sauce really liked it
I'm so happy
when I had my birthday party last year, I cooked the spaghetti
and everyone said it was delicious
it was after everyone was finished that I revealed I was the one who cooked it
Ohhh I loved their reaction especially my high school friends
I used to bake on weekly basis
my friends asked me to
they liked my chocolate crinkles
so they asked me to sell them hehehe
but I've been busy with school
that I didn't have time for my hobbies
with the 3 week summer vacation coming
I'll be back on the kitchen


my dad left this noon for Singapore
he went for a business trip and will be gone for a week
I'm so gonna miss him
please come back safe and sound


There's nothing going on in the fandoms
Nothing really interesting
Some random updates:
  • Shige and Koyama in Kiseki no Kizuna (haven't watched it)
  • I'm watching 1 litre of tears right now because I dreamt about Ryo which I don't remember the details except the beach ( sorry, so random)
  • I mentioned in a previous post somthing about TVXQ, since then I haven't watched any of their videos yet (guess, I'm not getting into their fandom)
  • Kame looks so good in his hairstyle right now
  • I watched Cartoon KAT-TUN episode 100 without subs, I understood about 60%. It was a funny episode
  • I've downloaded and watched Arashi no Shukudai-kun where Nagase was the guest. I was laughing so hard last night. I'm also downloading their singles right now. I'm officially entering the Arashi fandom.

That's it for today's post
Ja...


* p.s. I can't believe I slept all afternoon from 12 noon to 4 pm...
that was a first...


Meme...

RULES
Take this quiz and find out how stupid you are (GUYS TOO).
Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun!

[ ] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[X] during the summer pretty much the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[X] my favorite toy as a child were barbies
[ ] my favorite color is pink or purple
[X] i did Gymnastics ( I did ballet, can't find a gymnastics school)
[ ] i love skirts
[ ] hollister is one of my favorite places to shop
[ ] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x] i love chocolate
[x] i've never had a real job
TOTAL: 5

[ ] my hair is straightened (The opposite, I had it curled)
[X] i have at least 8 friendster pictures (I have more)
[ ] i usually go shopping once a week
[X] i love to hang out at the mall with friends
[ ] i have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace
[ ] i've gone to a tanning salon
[ ] i go to the beach to tan - not to swim
[ ] i have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] i watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[ ] i change my icon weekly
TOTAL: 2

[ ] i would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
[ ] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[ ] i wear mascara everyday
[X] i've been or am on a diet
[ ] bathing suits are adorable
[ ] i dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[ ] i have gotten my nails done
[ ] i own over 10 purses
[ ] MTV is my one of my favorite channels
TOTAL: 1

[ ] all i want to do at sleepovers is talk about JE boys
[ ] i love to have other girls do my hair
[ ] i give and receive hugs from all my friends
[ ] i hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders
[X] carnivals are so fun!!
[ ] summer is THE best season
[ ] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[ ] i'm waiting for my knight in shining armor
[X] musicians are so hot
[ ] if you write me a poem or tell me i'm beautiful and i'm all yours
TOTAL: 2

[ ] i am self-conscious.
[x] i cry often
[ ] my car smells like vanilla
[ ] my dishes get washed more then once a week
[X] i don't do sports
[X] i HATE to run
[ ] i squeal when i am surprised or angry
[ ] i eat raisins as a snack
[ ] i love romance novels
[X] Drew Barrymore is so cute.
TOTAL: 4

[x] i usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house
[ ] i only have like 5 billion hair products
[ ] i love to get dressed up.
[ ] every part of my outfit needs to match
[ ] i talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[ ] i would love to have a photo shoot of myself
[ ] price on clothes hardly matters
[ ] i apply lip gloss 200 times a day
[ ] i wish i were a model
TOTAL: 1

[ ] i wish I could meet Sun Go Kong
[ ] i have been something that was semi slutty on halloween
[ ] i own Uggs
[ ] Hip Hop is good music
[ ] i pop my collar
[ ] i like to be the center of attention
[ ] guys with Mohawks are crazily hot
[ ] monkeys are beautiful
[ ] i'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] cats are adorable
TOTAL: 1

[X] i write poems even if I'm not poetic
[ ] i love it when a guy/girl wears good smelling cologne/perfume (I don't like perfumes)
[ ] i can get very jealous
[x] i would love to visit Hawaii
[ ] Valentine's day is so cute!
[X] white is better then black
[ ] i wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[ ] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[x] i hate the grunge look of a beard
[X] i love to read gossip magazines
TOTAL: 5

[ ] i love to gossip about my friends
[ ] i had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid
[X] i love Eminem
[ ] My bubble baths are almost 2 hrs long
[ ] my wedding only needs a groom. it's already planned
[ ] my friends and i are in a strict group. we mostly only hang out with each other
[ ] i hate kids
[ ] diet drinks are the best
[ ] i'm all about being vegetarian
[ ] i refuse to eat at McDonalds
TOTAL: 1

[ ] i check my frienster everyday
[x] i LOVE life! (if not, i wouldn't be here right now)
[X] i have a lot of jewlery!
[ ] my screen names have x's in them
[ ] either one of my myspace names has/had <3 in them
[ ] i would never want to be the opposite sex
[x] it's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[x] i have more than 3 pillows on my bed
TOTAL: 4

Meme...

YOUR BOY SIDE:
[X] You love hoodies.
[X] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
[X] Its hilarious when people get hurt.
[X] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[X] Shopping is torture.
[X] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own a XBOX.
[ ] You own a Wii.
[ ] You played with Hot Wheels as a little kid.
[ ] At some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You owned a DS, PS2, or Sega.
[X] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[X] You watch sports on TV.
[X] Gory movies are cool.
[X] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball hats.
[ ] You used to/do collect football collector cards.
[X] Baggy sweatpants are cool to wear.
[ ] Its kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[X] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[ ] You love to go crazy and not care what other people think.
[X] Sports are fun.
[X] You talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] You sleep at night with your socks on.
[ ] You have fished at least once.
Total: 14

YOUR GIRL SIDE
[ ] You love to shop.
[ ] You wear eyeliner. sometimes
[X] You wear the color pink.
[ ] You go to your mom for advice.
[X] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[X] You hate wearing the color black. (Because it's hot.)
[X] You like going to the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[X] You like wearing jewelry. (Just necklace, earring and a ring. Nothing more.)
[X] You cried watching The Notebook. (Haven't watched it but I know I will. I cry easily.)
[ ] Skirts are a big parts of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[X] You are/were in gymnastics. (I did ballet.)
[X] It takes you around one hour to shower.
[X] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[ ] You like wearing body spray/perfume.
[ ] You like high heel shoes.
[X] You used to play with dolls as a kid.
[ ] You like putting makeup on others.
[ ] You like being the star of almost everything.
[X] Pink is one of your favorite colors.
Total: 11

Haha...As I thought, I'm more of a boy than a girl...

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Meme...

Meme I got from chika1611...


Name: Barbra Mae I. Rana
Sisters: None but I have one "adopted"
Brothers: 2
Shoe Size: In my country, it's 7
Height: 5 feet

Where do you live: Mandaluyong City, Philippines
Favorite drinks: Iced tea, mango shake or juice, strawberry shake
Favorite breakfast: corned beef and rice
Have you ever been on a plane?: No
Swam in the ocean?: I can't swim, more like I don't wanna swim
Fallen asleep at school?: In class, no...I tried my very best not to...But in the clinic, yes
Broken someone's heart?: yes, I think so...
Fell of your chair: Can't remember
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: No
Saved e-mails: Yes
What is your room like: Quite neat and tidy, but the inside of my closet is super messy
What's right beside you?: the living room door
What was the last thing you ate?: a Nestle Crunch chocolate
Ever had chicken pox?: Yes, just 2 years ago
Sore throat: Yes
Stitches: No
Broken Nose: No

Do you believe in love at first sight? No
Like picnics: Yes
Who was/were the last person/people you danced with: 3 male classmates during Senior Prom (that was like 4 years ago)
You last yelled at: No one (I don't yell,it's rude)

Today did you;
Talk to someone you like: No
Kiss anyone: Yes, my parents during mass
Get sick: No
Talk to an ex: No
Miss someone: Yes, I haven't seen my best friend for 2 weeks
Eat: Of course

Best Feeling in the World: Happy
Do you sleep with stuffed animals? No, but I sleep with a BIG pillow beside me
What's under your bed? Some shoe boxes and dust bunnies
Who do you really hate? Inconsiderate people
What time is it now? 10:40 pm

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: Yes, it's Yamashita Tomohisa
Do you have any siblings: Yes
Do you want children: of course
Do you smile often: Yes
Do you like your hand-writing: my penmanship is really good...my friends sometimes ask me to write the frontpages of their works
Are your toe nails painted: No
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: my parent's bed
What color shirt are you wearing now: brown
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: eating in a restaurant with my family
Are you a friendly person: yes?
Do you have any pets: nope but I'm buying a rabbit maybe next week ^_^
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: No, she's my best friend and a girl
Do you sleep with the TV on?: No
What are you doing right now?: writing my ethics essay
Have you ever crawled through a window?: No
Can you handle the truth?: Yes, but it depends on what kind of truth
Are you too forgiving?: yes
Are you closer to your mother or father?: mother I think, but I like my father more
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: my pillow
Do you eat healthy?: Not really
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: yes, it's in a photo album
Are you confident?: not at all


5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. go to an all-girls Catholic school
2. go to the department stores with just my mom
3. walk to and from school alone
4. wait anxiously for my dad to come home every 3 to 4 months
5.

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. check my lj friends page
2. download Tensai!Shimura Doubutsen episodes
3. watch "Long Love Letter"
4. continue writing my ethics essay
5. go to mass with my parents

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. banana cue
2. bread
3. instant pancit canton
4. ice cream
5. palabok

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. go on a trip around the world
2. give some money to charity
3. buy a big new house
4. invest on some business
5. buy everything I want

5 of my bad habits:
1. moody
2. I used to thumbsack
3.
4.
5.

5 places I have lived in:
1. Olongapo City, Zambales
2. San Marcelino, Zambales
3. Legaspi City, Albay
4. Naga City, Camarines Sur
5. Mandaluyong City, Metro Manila

5 jobs I've had:
1. watching our sari-sari store
2.
3.
4.
5.

Happy day...

I just got home
I'm tired
I'm sleepy
but I had lots of fun
Oh, and I'm excited too!
I'm in a good mood ^_^


I had my practical exam in Analytical Chemistry laboratory this morning
since we can't decide on the order of taking the exam, we drew lots by group
I wanted to got first thought but I can't say it out loud
in the end, I was the last person to take the exam
the pattern of the exam is like this:
we'll go inside the room one by one
we have 10 minutes to finish the 3 stations for the exam
then additional 5 minutes for the computations
after taking the exam, the students stay inside the room until no one's waiting for their turn outside
since I'm last, it means I'll be left alone waiting outside the room
just the thought of that made me lonely
but I wasn't left alone
Mm other friends' who were having their class in the room in front of ours joined me
their teacher hasn't arrived yet so we talked a bit
It raised my spirits
and by the time I was called their teacher still hasn't arrived
while I was doing my exam, my professor and other classmates went back to our usual room
and I was left in the care of the laboratory assistant
it was a plus for me because I was the only student in the exam room so there were no distractions
I was able to concentrate
the first station was about apparatus
there were 10 apparatus and I had to identify them and their uses
the second part was about laboratory set-ups
there were 2 set-ups and I had to point out the mistakes in them
the third part is titration
we had to titrate the acid until it changes color then compute for its molarity
as soon as I finished, I knew I did well
I was able to answer everything within the given time
even in the titration part, the color of my solution was really light pink
I saw the others' work and they're all dark pink, almost fuschia
our professor checked my paper as soon as she received it and guess what I got
I got a 96/100!!!!
I was so happy
it's been a long time since I got a score that high
actually, I did not have any mistakes
I only lack 4 answers for the second part
next week, we'll be having the written exam
so I still have to study for it


after class, I waited for Kat's class to finish
we ate lunch in Chowking
as usual, we watched a movie
we watched "He's just not that into you"
at first, we though of watching Streetfighter: Legend of Chun-Li
but Allan's going to kill us (kakatayin niya kami) so we decided to watch another film and wait for the time that Allan and Shid can join us to watch it
Allan and Shid had their defense for their feasibility studies so they weren't able to come
after the movie, we strolled the mall a bit while waiting for my parents
when we separated, I went to the department store because my parents were there
I bought a new bag then we went home


it was my dad's birthday last Tuesday but he wasn't aound that time
so hasn't treated us yet
we went home to fetch my brother and housekeeper
we ate dinner at Max's Restaurant
we ordered and ate a lot
there's pancit canton, sinigang na tiyan na bangus, camaron rebosado, kare-kare, and a whole chicken
I was so full
For sure, it'll be a while before we eat out like this again
(my dad in stingy)


I watched KAT-TUN's new pv "Rescue"
again, it was so cool just like the "One drop" pv especially Ueda and Jin's dance part
it's so cool that it makes me mad
how about NEWS?!
when are they going to have a pv like that?!
I'm worried that if I continue seeing KAT-TUN like these, I might go back to their fandom


I watched TVXQ's pv "Survivor"
it was ok, I didn't really like it
then I watched their Smap x Smap guesting without english subs
(I was surprised I understood the interview, my mom was eyeing me suspiciously while watching it because there were no subs and yet I was laughing and smiling)
watching their pv gave me realization
TVXQ is the very first asian boyband that I knew
I remember watching them in Show Music Tank in Arirang TV
I think it was U-know and Mickey were the hosts at that time
but I did not bother checking them out
I had no interest in internet that time
and BoA was the only reason why I was watching that show
They sang "Purple Line" in Smap x Smap
so I checked out it's video as well as "Mirotic"
and I seriously liked it
now I'm thinking of downloading their songs
Someone stop me!!!
if this goes on, I might join their fandom
and I don't want to because it takes up so much time
and I am quite busy right now


Hell week officially starts on Monday
it's the last week of the term
I've started my ethics essay and made 3 pages now
still need 1 or 2 more pages
last Friday, I asked one of my classmates in ethics about his essay
he said he asked his friend that is a law student to do the essay for him?!
that is sooo unfair
here I am, racking my empty brain for ideas and worrying myself out that I won't be able to finish it
and there he is asking someone else to do it for him while he sleeps in our class!!!
I hate people like that
I did not talk to him for the rest of the class
(that was in our anal chem class by the way)
but of course, I didn't show how angry I was
as a result, I lost my motivation to do the paper
what's the use of doing something that I know will just get a passing grade while someone will get a higher grade for the same work that he didn't do
it really pissed me off
so for 2 days, I slacked off
but this morning, I asked my other classmates how their paper is going and found out that they haven't even started it yet
knowing that I'm quite ahead of the others made me a bit happy
and now I'm back on track
Ugh, I'm such a simple minded person


I've finished watching "Lunch Queen"
at first, I only watched it because of Yamapi
but as I watch more episodes, I started to enjoy it
the plot is nice and I loved the female lead
it's about family, friendship, but more on romance
not to mention, the food were looks delicious that it made me hungry while watching
right now, I'm watching "Long Love Letter"
it's another Yamapi jdrama but the plot is also good
it's also about friendship and romance


I've downloaded a couple of Tensai!Shimura Doubutsen
Aiba cracks me up so much
I can't believe what I've been missing on the Arashi fandom
I've always liked Arashi
I'm a fan of them as individuals but not their songs
their songs just don't appeal to me


Hey!Say!JUMP! has a new show
How about NEWS?!
I want NEWS to have their own regular show too
I miss my NEWS
Please give them work!!!


Phew, that was a long post
I'm off now to continue my ethics essay
Ja...

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Nothing to Say...

I'm tired
I'm sleepy
I'm depressed


I'm 100% sure I will fail analytical chemistry lecture
I got a really really really low score on my 2nd quiz despite studying
that's why I'm so frustrated because I studied really hard
but then I got that kind of score
I think it's impossible to make up for it now
I'm conditioning myself to see a 5.00 (failing grade) in my card by the end of the term
this is going to be my 2nd 5.00 grade
I'm not going to tell my parents
I feel ashamed of myself


I really want to do my college life all over again
Someone please give me a time slip
"Hallelujah Chance"
but of course it's impossible
it's my own fault for choosing Mapua and engineering
I don't have regrets going to that school and studying that program
It's just that I should have done better
before, my aim is just to pass the subject
a 3.00 (passing grade) would satisfy me
but now I want 2.00 and above grades
why?
because when I graduate, I want to have a honor
and it will give me better chances to enroll in the university I want to study for Master's Degree


I wasn't able to go to mass last Ash Wednesday
I will submit my take home quiz in dynamics where all my classmates copied from me so all have the same answers on Tuseday
I have my 3rd quiz on anal chem lecture which I already started studying since Saturday on Wednesday
I have an essay in ethics that I have no idea what to write due on March 14
I only have two weeks to do this
This term is on the 9th week now
There's only 3 more weeks left then summer vacation
I have at least 3 weeks to mourn for my failing grade


If I saw and replied earlier to my brother's text message last Friday,
I already would have a pet rabbit now


She's starting to get on my nerves
she's so KY
and stop calling me "psst"!!!
I have my own name
and it's not "psst"
you don't have to ask every little thing that's going on in this house
it's none of your business
you don't have ask every single thing you need to do
even how much rice you have to cook, you still need to disturb me?!
isn't that the reason why you're here?!
seriously annoying


I've been thinking of what I want to do with my life
and it's stressing me out
when I was a kid, I wanted to be a doctor
but I can't handle blood and syringes so I gave up
watching Code Blue reminded me how great doctors are
I'm on my 4th year in college now
it's too late to change careers
not to mention I still can't handle syringes
so I've thought of an alternative where I can be in medical and engineering field at the same time
and I've found not only one but two possible fields
(actually not only 2 but these are what I'm interested)
They are Biomedical engineering and Biomaterials engineering (I prefer this one better)
I don't think these fields is being offered anywhere in the Philippines
so I looked for other possible universities
I have mentioned before that I want to study my Master's Degree in Japan so obviously I looked for Japanese universities
so far, I have only found 2 who offers them
Tokyo Institute of Technology and University of Tokyo
I can probably get into Tokyo Tech but it's in Yokohama
I prefer to be in Tokyo but with my level, it seems Todai is impossible
and this is what's stressing me out
(this kinda seem pointless right now because I still have to graduate from bachelor's degree)


earlier I asked my brother if I can be a model too
and he said "Oo naman, ikaw lang naman ang ayaw eh"
which roughly translates to "of course you can, it's just you who doesn't want to"
I'm not pretty
I'm not thin
I'm more on the heavy side
but at least, maybe, there's also available job for me out there right?
he's holding a modeling workshop on March 14
maybe I'll attend it
do I still have to apply to him even if he's my brother?


My dad's birthday is on Tuesday
but he won't be around
he's going to Subic tomorrow for a seminar
he'll back on Thursday
I'm gonna miss him


I'll try writing my essay now
Ja ne...

This is me...

Barbra Mae
"Barbie"

born 21st August 1988

a Materials Science and Engineering, Major in Semiconductors student
in Mapua Institute of Technology

youngest and only girl in 3 siblings

used to have braces from 3rd year of high school until 1st year of college

stays at home most of the time

loves to cook and bake, I'm pretty good at it
my specialty is filipino dishes and chocolate crinkles

favorite color is blue and silver

favorite animals are cats, rabbits and dolphins

favorite food is shrimps
but allergic to them because of asthma
so I only get to eat them like once a year :(

like sweets especially cake and ice cream

prefers fish over pork or beef

almost never eats junk food

I don't like soft drinks
I can't finish even a single glass of soda

I hate vegetables
but I'm starting to LEARN to eat them
I'm in the process of convincing myself that they're good for the health

I am a pure blooded Bicolana
both my parents are from Bicol
but I'm born in Olongapo City

I'm a shy and quiet person
I don't talk much especially with people I just met
I'm not the type to approach people and start conversations

I don't like waiting alone, I feel lonely
if we agreed to meet at 10 am, you should be there at 10 am
but I don't mind making others wait

I am organized person
if you borrowed something from me, return it to where you got it
I don't want it lying around somewhere
I arrange the contents of my bag properly because it feels heavy when it's not
but the inside of my closet is so messy that a snake would probably come out of there one of these days

I'm having a hard time expressing my feelings and voicing out my opinions
I'm very sensitive to the feelings of others
if I have something I want to say but would hurt others, I'll just keep it to myself

I don't get mad easily
I'm very good at controlling my temper

whenever I lose my temper, which is very rare, I just keep quiet and ignore everyone
I'm not the type who shouts and points fingers at other people

I'm a soft hearted person
I easily forgive others even if they did something really bad to me

hate plastics, backstabbers and liars
don't like but not hate KY people

believes in karma

I'm a go-with-the-flow person
I rather have my friends or companions decide what to do or where to go

I don't like partying, gimiks or going to concerts
I don't like crowded or noisy places
I prefer quiet and toned down places
(but I don't mind going to a NEWS or Show Luo concert ^_^)

I've been to 4 schools till now
attended an all girls Catholic school during grade school in Bicol
spent my first year high school in a science high school in Subic
transferred to Manila during my second year until fourth year high school
studying college in a different school for four years now

loves to study especially math, physics and chemistry
enjoys solving problems, anything that has numbers

bad at memorization
hates history and literature classes

I took ballet lessons for a year when I was in grade 2

I used to be a dancer in grade school (modern dance)
but stopped when I entered high school

I play the guitar and keyboards
even tried composing songs

I used to have a band in first year of college
but after 2 jamming sessions, we just of kind of disbanded

learned Taekwondo one summer in grade school
graduated from white belt
my mom forced me to stop because it will interfere with my studies

an orange belter in Karatedo
but had to stop because of my asthma (or is it laziness?)

I can drive but I don't want to
I got hit when I was having my driving lessons

I love the beach but I don't swim
I prefer not to
I have a mild case of hydrophobia
I don't like putting my head underwater
(I drowned when I was a kid)

scared of syringes especially IV drops

I'm good at handling money
a thrifty person

Not so active member of Student Catholic Action

Batch 2005 Representative of EMSE Student Council

collects K-Zone and Otakuzine magazines

loves horror/thriller/slasher and action movies
(those with special effects)

loves books especially vampire, horror, thriller and mystery books

an anime addict
my mom got mad at me a lot because of it

an avid asian drama watcher

a fan of American Idol

I'm a fan of BoA
I like her songs and her dancing is so cool

I'm also a fan of Show Luo
he's so funny and his dancing is effortless
he's singing is average though
"Taiwan's Dancing King"

I love NEWS, KAT-TUN, Kanjani8 and Hey!Say!JUMP!
NEWS is my ichiban
Tegoshi Yuya is my ichiban

My dream is to go to Japan to study Master's Degree in Biomedical or Biomaterials Engineering