Whenever...

Whenever you feel alone...
Always remember that I am here...
I will never forget...
The precious moment we've been together...

Whenever you feel down...
Just look at the mirror...
Take a very close look...
And say that I can do it...

Whenever you feel abandoned...
Someone out there's ready to adopt you...
You may not notice it...
But I am always at your side...

Whenever you feel lonely...
I'm here to cheer you up...
Through happiness and sadness...
I'm ready to be with you...

Loneliness...

Those days seem so long...
The house is quiet...
I'm longing for your voice...
Please come back soon...

I always get mad and annoyed by your demands...
Shouting errands left and right, not one after the other, but at the same time...
And whenever they're not met...
You always get mad...

But now, you're not here with me...
You're in some other place relaxing...
And here I am left all alone...
I try to ignore the loneliness...
But it really feels empty inside...

Every morning I wake up in eerie silence...
I'm so focused with going to school...
And later realize that I am all alone...
It's not scary for me...
But I feel so lonely that I lose energy to go to school...

When I go back home from school...
The house is empty...
My brothers' leaving me alone...
With no one to talk to or play with...

I thought I'll be happier alone...
But now I realize that that's not the case...
I realize that having you around is much more comfortable and easier...
So from now on, I'm gonna treasure and take care of you...

Been busy for the past few days...

Here's an update of what's happening in real life so far...

Friday, 19th of December...
I went to school to enroll for the next term...
The offices were only until 5 pm so I wasn't able to finish the process...
I had to go back the next day for the payment...
I was grateful that my friends, Keziah, Kat, Shid and Allan waited for me...
Then we went to SM Manila...
We first checked the cinema, what movies are shown and the time they'll be starting...
We decided to watch "Quarantine" through the time it will be starting which is in an hour and it's only movie playing that none of us have watched yet...
So we bought tickets for the 7:05 pm showing and went to grab lunch/dinner in one in Chowking...
Shid, Allan, Keziah and me ordered the salo-salo set meal while Kat ordered her own food...
We ate a lot...
We were so hungry cause we've been in school since lunch time and none of us ate lunch...
After eating there's still time so we just strolled the mall...
I bought a DVD set of the Harry Potter movies from 1 to 5...
After that, we bought snacks, popcorn and drinks and went to the cinema...
Around 8 pm, Keziah left because she has to go home already...
She did not finished the movie so she missed the ending...
It was a nice movie...
We kept screaming while watching...
This get together is to celebrate Keziah's birthday which was November 19th, Allan's birthday which was December 15th and Kat's upcoming birthday on December 30th...
After the movie, my dad called and said they'll pick me up...
Shid's home is on the way to our home so he went with us...
It's been a long time since me and my friends got together...
I had so much fun and I missed them so much...
After 4 years of being friends with each other, there are things that I realized in our group...
First, enrollment is the only time we really get together on a regular basis...
Second, during this time we ALWAYS end up eating in Chowking (this isn't on purpose)...
Third, all of us loves to watch movies in the cinema...
At least, there are things we ALL enjoy doing together...^_^

Saturday, 20th of December...
After lunch, I went to school with my parents to pay for my enrollment...
I'm an academic half-scholar this term, by the way, which I only have to pay half of my tuition fee...
But I never told my dad...
I have a pretty good reason to keep it from him although I really wanted to tell him...
After I paid, we went to Manila Ocean Park...
There wasn't a lot of people wo decided to enter...
My dad bought the Christmas Package ticket which includes the Glass Bottom Boat Ride and Fish Spa...
There are different kinds of fishes...
It was fun at first but became boring because the fishes became repetitive...
There's not much of variations...
Oh well, at least we were able to enter the facility...
Then we went home to eat dinner...
After dinner, we went to the grocery to buy our weekly supplies and the food for Noche Buena...
At first, I really did not want to go with my parents because I was already tired...
But I got worried because they might buy the wrong ingredients for our Noche Buena in which I'll be the one who will cook and prepare, so I went with them...
Luckily, we were able to buy everything I need...

Sunday, 21st of December...
We attended mass at 3:30 pm...
Our maid is going home to the province for 4 days so we drove her to the bus terminal...
She immediately found a ticket and boarded the bus...
She said she'll come back and I really do hope she comes back...
We're the same age and I like her...
After that we went to the mall, Robinsons Pioneer...
I was supposed to buy my brother an MP3 player but it turned out to be expensive...
So I dropped the idea...
In the end, I wasn't able to buy anything...
We just ate in Old Spahgetti House for dinner...
At least, I came out full from the mall...

Monday (today), 22nd of December...
My mom woke me up because we agreed to go buy gifts for Christmas...
First, we went to the bank to deposit money...
Goint to the salon was also ony my schedule today...
I was planning to get my hair colored and permed but my mom said it will take more than an hour...
Besides, I don't go out much anyway so we rescheduled it on January 2...
After the bank, we went to the mall...
We ate lunch first in Chowking again...
Then, we bought presents for the whole family...
I invited my cousin to spend the Christmas eve with us and they will, so I also bought presents for them...
I'll tell you what I bought for them after Christmas...
When we got home, I wrapped them in gift wrappers and put them under the Christmas tree...
So now, our tree is overflowing with gifts...

Some of the gifts under the Christmas tree

Grades + Birthday + Plans

I finally got my grades...
1.00 in Semiconductor Materials and Processes...
2.00 in Analytical Techniques in Materials and Science Engineering...
1.25 in Principles of Semiconductor Devices...
3.00 in General Chemistry Laboratory 2...
General Average : 1.70

I was so disappointed with my grade in chem lab...
I was actually expecting a high grade...
I even had a 145/150 quiz in that subject and I only got 3.00 which is equivalent to 70% which is the passing grade!!!
I did not expect that our professor gives such low grade...
Almost half of the class failed...
Ugh...I can't get over it...
I wasn't really expecting it...
Where did she get our grades?!

Today is Allan's birthday...
And I planned a celebration for him...
We were supposed to go to Star City but looks like our other friends were not interested...
I already informed them of the plan weeks ago and they said yes...
I was contacting them yesterday to finalize but no one is replying my mails...
In the end, it was cancelled...
I felt really bad...
First, I really want us to get together and have fun...
Second, I want Allan to celebrate his birthday because last year it was only him and Shid when they went to Enchanted Kingdom...
Third, I want to go to Star City with them...
So Allan and me just agreed to watch a movie and eat on enrollment, probably on Friday...
This time, I'll make sure it goes well...

I have 2 weeks ahead of me with nothing to do...
I finished all the Twilight books so now I'll start with Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows...
I'll probably finish it in 3 days...

My mom said that my dad is planning to buy me a Christmas gift...
She said he'll probably buy me the external hard disk I want...
Knowing my dad, I guess it's just all talk...
I'll just have to wait for it...
Also about the trip to Baguio City, I think it won't happen...
I asked him the other day and he gave me a silent treatment...
Translation: It's not happening...

I can't think of anything to say anymore...
So this is it for now...
Ja...

3 down, 1 more to go...

It's almost over...

I had my personal hell last week...
I didn't have class from Monday till Thusday so I was able to finish everything by Friday...
For Friday, I had my last quiz for Chemistry lab, Experiment 10 final report and Portfolio...
For Saturday, I had finals and research for my first subject, Semiconductor Materials and Processes...
As for my subject, Analytical Techniques, I also had my finals, lab report for electrospinning and optical microscopy and exercises for the other techniques...
I'm done with my 3 subjects...
I only have to wait for my grade on Sunday which I hope are all passing grades...
Well, I expect to pass all of them anyway...
I completed all the requirements and I studied hard for my exams...

I still be having my finals for one more subject which is Semiconductor Devices...
I hate that subject...
I don't understand it at all...
I just pretend that I'm listening during lecture but I'm really not...
It's like I'm there physically but absent mentally...
My mind is wandering off somewhere...
But I have no choice...
I have to force myself to study for it maybe by Thursday...
Good luck to me...

Yesterday, we went to church and I was asked to offer during the offertory...
At first, I was in shock...
The ones who offer during the mass are picked randomly so I wasn't expecting it at all...
What was their criteria for picking???
So I proceeded to offer...

Today, we went to mass again...
It's the feast of the Immaculate Concepcion so it's a holy day of obligation...
After the mass, we went to eat dinner and walked home although it's a bit far...
It was nice to have some exercise and I sweat a bit...

So I have a pretty free week ahead of me...
I'll start studying on Thursday...
As for the free days, I guess I'll just look for something to do...

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