The Day of Change...

OMG, I freaking look lika Toda Erika...Well, at least the hair...I swear I seriously did not intend it to look like hers...But for some reason it became like this...

I've been asking my mom since December to go to the salon with me...I wanted a change so I decide to have my hair colored...But since it's vacation and I won't be going out much, she said it's just a waste and rescheduled our trip for the first week of January, the start of my classes...

Come first week of January...I had problems with my schedule plus my laziness so we weren't able to go...Friday last week (23rd of January), my mom asked me if I wanted to go to the salon...But my brother said to go the next week (which was last Friday, 30th of January) so we could all go together and he'll pay for it...

Come last Friday...For the past month, I have wanted to color my hair for the first time...But I noticed that as it grows longer, the tips are becoming wavy...So I thought maybe I should just have it curled...My mom asked me what I wanted to do with it so I said I want it curled and colored...But she said no...Too much chemicals will ruin my hair...So I just put off the idea of coloring it...Coloring my hair might ruin it more than curling it anyway...So we went to the salon and had it curled...Oh and I also wanted to try having long bangs...So the stylist cut some of my hair up to the level of my mouth...The length of my hair is until half of my back by the way...And then she started putting my hair into curlers...It took about 3 hours to finish...I was so sleepy but fought it...When it was done, it wasn't what I expected...Actually, I was expecting big curls just like Goldilocks'...But for some reason it looks exactly like Toda Erica's hair in Code Blue...Well, I don't hate it...I actually love it...Surprisingly, it suits me...^_^ At least that's what I think...My mom isn't satisfied with it though...She thinks it's not curly enough...As for the bangs, the stylist suggested that shower/chinese bangs suits my curly hair better...So I went for it and had her cut it to the level of my eyes...And here I am having curly hair and shower/chinese bangs...

I went to school this morning feeling excited and confident because of my new hair...I got different comments but I think they all liked it...My first classmate that saw me asked if I did not bathed...I really don't get why he said that...Is it because it looks like I didn't comb my hair???...
I really don't know and I did not bothered to ask (the truth is I didn't comb it, the stylist said not to, to maintain the curls)...One of my classmates said I look pretty...Wow...It's the first time someone actually said that to me (I don't know if he's serious or he's just fooling around, somehow it made me happy either way)...Here are the other comments:

Kat: Koreana ka ba??? (Are you Korean???)
Kat: Bagay naman sayo ah...(It suits you)
Mat: Wow...Kulot...Ayos ah...Bagay sayo...(Wow...Curly...Good...It suits you...)
Kuya Evan (jokingly): Di ka naligo no? (You did not take a bath???...just because I did not comb my hair and it looks shiny doesn't mean I didn't took a bath)
Kuya Allen: Yan na ba ang new look mo ngaun??? (Is that you're new look now???)
Bez Keziah, Toni, Jeck and Shiella: Nagpakulot ko?! (You curled your hair?!)

In short, for the first time in my 20 years, I changed my hairstyle and it seems everyone has accepted it...

This morning I had lab class...Our professor was absent but she left us the experiment to do...It was easy and short so around 10 am, we're already finished...My friend Kat was also finished with her class and since it's still early and my next class is at 430 pm, we went to watch a movie again...This time, we watched Ink Heart...It was a good movie...Almost made me cry when the family was reunited at the end but of course I held back my tears...It would be too embarrassing...After the movie, we went to supermarket to buy something and parted ways...Kat went home and I went back to school for my class...Oh and we went to KFC for lunch before the movie anyway...Just want to tell you...

Real Life Happenings:

• I changed my hairstyle...
• I had my first quiz last Friday in Analytical Chemistry and I know I totally failed...It was hard...The fact that I did not study much didn't made any help...I'll just do better next time...
• I got 84/100 for my first experiment in Analytical Chemistry lab...
• Also had my first quiz in dynamics...It was open notes...Not sure how I did though...
• My eldest brother has a new job...He's in Emerson now and he has nothing else to do but to respond and send e-mails...He sure has a lot of free time at work so he just surfs the net and still gets the same salary as his previous one (he used to work in a call center)...
• In their sports competiton in the company, he won silver for 4 x 50 m relay and bronze for 25 m breastroke in swimming...It looks like after all these years, he's still good at swimming...He was in the varsity swimming team in his university...
• I officially started a food and exercise diary...With my hair done now, I'll definitely lose weight...
  
• My internet connection is still very slow...
• My friend Kat send me the books Ink Heart, Ink Spell and Ink Death...I'll start reading it whenever I feel like reading...
  
• I envy those who have lost of comments on their journal...No one's commenting on mine anymore...I wonder why that is...Am I THAT boring and unlikeable???...I feel lonely...
  

Fandom Updates:

• Boa's first American album will be released on 17th of March...tracklist can be seen here...
• KAT-TUN will be doing a 7 day Tokyo Dome Concert on 15th to 21st of May...
• Koyama's butai "Call" has started...I read his really great there...They're selling the pics Shige took in their New York trip as postcards...
• Yamapi has taken a leave in updating his nikki...
• Show Luo has imitated Yamapi twice...watch it here...and here...
• What going on with Shige???No news about him at all...
• Viiki servers have been down for a couple of days that's why I haven't finished Hot Shot yet...4 episodes to go...
• While waiting for Viiki, I decided to watch Dragon Zakura and I really liked it...I'll finish this first before going back to Hot Shot...I'm on episode 7 now...
• I've watched Code Blue Special...It made me cry...I'm so gonna miss Oba-chan and Kousaku...
  
• Chinen Yuuri reallyy looks like his mom...See it here...

To end this post, I have a very random story from last week...Last Sunday, we went to church and I was wearing white shorts and a checkered orange/green blouse...My brother (second eldest) said that I look like a melon and my dad seconded it...They keep on saying that until we left...So in retailiation, when he went to work wearing a bright orange sort of cloak blouse (sorry for the random description), I told hime he looks like a bubble gum and our housekeeper said he looks like orange flavored candy...hahahahahaha Wow...our family really looks like FOOD...

Went to School for nothing...

I woke up early this morning with the hopes that I'll still be able to add a subject...I woke up at 6 am, proceeded with my morning rituals and went to school...When I arrived in school, I proceeded to the registrar's office and asked if I could still add a subject...Unfortunately, the revision of load is already finished...Urgh...I went to school for nothing...I thought I'll still be able to add it because the subject just opened last Friday and by the time my "supposed to be" classmate mailed, I've already gone home...And last Saturday, no one was in the registrar's office...In the end, nothing came out with my trip to school...It was tiring...I did not even last 10 minutes in school...I did not even got the chance to sit down...As soon as I was rejected by the registrar, I went straight home...

I was supposed to go to SM megamall this afternoon to meet with my childhood friends, Ate Dimple and Ate Grace...However, Ate Grace did not make it to Manila, so it was rescheduled for tomorrow...I hope we'll be able to meet tomorrow...

I'm still in the middle of writing my super duper long New Year's post...Please look forward to it...

Been busy for the past few days...

Here's an update of what's happening in real life so far...

Friday, 19th of December...
I went to school to enroll for the next term...
The offices were only until 5 pm so I wasn't able to finish the process...
I had to go back the next day for the payment...
I was grateful that my friends, Keziah, Kat, Shid and Allan waited for me...
Then we went to SM Manila...
We first checked the cinema, what movies are shown and the time they'll be starting...
We decided to watch "Quarantine" through the time it will be starting which is in an hour and it's only movie playing that none of us have watched yet...
So we bought tickets for the 7:05 pm showing and went to grab lunch/dinner in one in Chowking...
Shid, Allan, Keziah and me ordered the salo-salo set meal while Kat ordered her own food...
We ate a lot...
We were so hungry cause we've been in school since lunch time and none of us ate lunch...
After eating there's still time so we just strolled the mall...
I bought a DVD set of the Harry Potter movies from 1 to 5...
After that, we bought snacks, popcorn and drinks and went to the cinema...
Around 8 pm, Keziah left because she has to go home already...
She did not finished the movie so she missed the ending...
It was a nice movie...
We kept screaming while watching...
This get together is to celebrate Keziah's birthday which was November 19th, Allan's birthday which was December 15th and Kat's upcoming birthday on December 30th...
After the movie, my dad called and said they'll pick me up...
Shid's home is on the way to our home so he went with us...
It's been a long time since me and my friends got together...
I had so much fun and I missed them so much...
After 4 years of being friends with each other, there are things that I realized in our group...
First, enrollment is the only time we really get together on a regular basis...
Second, during this time we ALWAYS end up eating in Chowking (this isn't on purpose)...
Third, all of us loves to watch movies in the cinema...
At least, there are things we ALL enjoy doing together...^_^

Saturday, 20th of December...
After lunch, I went to school with my parents to pay for my enrollment...
I'm an academic half-scholar this term, by the way, which I only have to pay half of my tuition fee...
But I never told my dad...
I have a pretty good reason to keep it from him although I really wanted to tell him...
After I paid, we went to Manila Ocean Park...
There wasn't a lot of people wo decided to enter...
My dad bought the Christmas Package ticket which includes the Glass Bottom Boat Ride and Fish Spa...
There are different kinds of fishes...
It was fun at first but became boring because the fishes became repetitive...
There's not much of variations...
Oh well, at least we were able to enter the facility...
Then we went home to eat dinner...
After dinner, we went to the grocery to buy our weekly supplies and the food for Noche Buena...
At first, I really did not want to go with my parents because I was already tired...
But I got worried because they might buy the wrong ingredients for our Noche Buena in which I'll be the one who will cook and prepare, so I went with them...
Luckily, we were able to buy everything I need...

Sunday, 21st of December...
We attended mass at 3:30 pm...
Our maid is going home to the province for 4 days so we drove her to the bus terminal...
She immediately found a ticket and boarded the bus...
She said she'll come back and I really do hope she comes back...
We're the same age and I like her...
After that we went to the mall, Robinsons Pioneer...
I was supposed to buy my brother an MP3 player but it turned out to be expensive...
So I dropped the idea...
In the end, I wasn't able to buy anything...
We just ate in Old Spahgetti House for dinner...
At least, I came out full from the mall...

Monday (today), 22nd of December...
My mom woke me up because we agreed to go buy gifts for Christmas...
First, we went to the bank to deposit money...
Goint to the salon was also ony my schedule today...
I was planning to get my hair colored and permed but my mom said it will take more than an hour...
Besides, I don't go out much anyway so we rescheduled it on January 2...
After the bank, we went to the mall...
We ate lunch first in Chowking again...
Then, we bought presents for the whole family...
I invited my cousin to spend the Christmas eve with us and they will, so I also bought presents for them...
I'll tell you what I bought for them after Christmas...
When we got home, I wrapped them in gift wrappers and put them under the Christmas tree...
So now, our tree is overflowing with gifts...

Some of the gifts under the Christmas tree

Grades + Birthday + Plans

I finally got my grades...
1.00 in Semiconductor Materials and Processes...
2.00 in Analytical Techniques in Materials and Science Engineering...
1.25 in Principles of Semiconductor Devices...
3.00 in General Chemistry Laboratory 2...
General Average : 1.70

I was so disappointed with my grade in chem lab...
I was actually expecting a high grade...
I even had a 145/150 quiz in that subject and I only got 3.00 which is equivalent to 70% which is the passing grade!!!
I did not expect that our professor gives such low grade...
Almost half of the class failed...
Ugh...I can't get over it...
I wasn't really expecting it...
Where did she get our grades?!

Today is Allan's birthday...
And I planned a celebration for him...
We were supposed to go to Star City but looks like our other friends were not interested...
I already informed them of the plan weeks ago and they said yes...
I was contacting them yesterday to finalize but no one is replying my mails...
In the end, it was cancelled...
I felt really bad...
First, I really want us to get together and have fun...
Second, I want Allan to celebrate his birthday because last year it was only him and Shid when they went to Enchanted Kingdom...
Third, I want to go to Star City with them...
So Allan and me just agreed to watch a movie and eat on enrollment, probably on Friday...
This time, I'll make sure it goes well...

I have 2 weeks ahead of me with nothing to do...
I finished all the Twilight books so now I'll start with Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows...
I'll probably finish it in 3 days...

My mom said that my dad is planning to buy me a Christmas gift...
She said he'll probably buy me the external hard disk I want...
Knowing my dad, I guess it's just all talk...
I'll just have to wait for it...
Also about the trip to Baguio City, I think it won't happen...
I asked him the other day and he gave me a silent treatment...
Translation: It's not happening...

I can't think of anything to say anymore...
So this is it for now...
Ja...

3 down, 1 more to go...

It's almost over...

I had my personal hell last week...
I didn't have class from Monday till Thusday so I was able to finish everything by Friday...
For Friday, I had my last quiz for Chemistry lab, Experiment 10 final report and Portfolio...
For Saturday, I had finals and research for my first subject, Semiconductor Materials and Processes...
As for my subject, Analytical Techniques, I also had my finals, lab report for electrospinning and optical microscopy and exercises for the other techniques...
I'm done with my 3 subjects...
I only have to wait for my grade on Sunday which I hope are all passing grades...
Well, I expect to pass all of them anyway...
I completed all the requirements and I studied hard for my exams...

I still be having my finals for one more subject which is Semiconductor Devices...
I hate that subject...
I don't understand it at all...
I just pretend that I'm listening during lecture but I'm really not...
It's like I'm there physically but absent mentally...
My mind is wandering off somewhere...
But I have no choice...
I have to force myself to study for it maybe by Thursday...
Good luck to me...

Yesterday, we went to church and I was asked to offer during the offertory...
At first, I was in shock...
The ones who offer during the mass are picked randomly so I wasn't expecting it at all...
What was their criteria for picking???
So I proceeded to offer...

Today, we went to mass again...
It's the feast of the Immaculate Concepcion so it's a holy day of obligation...
After the mass, we went to eat dinner and walked home although it's a bit far...
It was nice to have some exercise and I sweat a bit...

So I have a pretty free week ahead of me...
I'll start studying on Thursday...
As for the free days, I guess I'll just look for something to do...

Laziness...

I've been very lazy this past few days to update...
I don't even want to move but I have no choice because I have a ton of school work...
So I'll just give a brief summary of what happened this week...

Monday is the usual...
Had an experiment in chem lab class...
Our group was the first one to finish, thanks to the groups' really good cooperation, so we got to go home early...
Probably around 10 am...
I went home even though I was supposed to wait someone in school...
It's too early and the person I'm waiting will be arriving at 1 pm...
So I took the risk, went home and said to myself that I'll just go to school the next day even if I don't have class...

Tuesday, I went to school even though I don't have class...
Well, we're supposed to have a meeting with our department head to decide next term's schedule and subjects...
Only to find out that Matthew and the others already went home and our department head does not have class so she'll probably not come to school...
However, the student assistant said to wait because our dept. head is supposed to go to school but hasn't arrived yet...
So I waited and good thing, I saw my friends (Keziah and the others)...
We went to lunch and then we checked for our dept. head again...
She still hasn't arrived so the assisstant just asked me to leave the documents to be signed...
So I left it and went home...

Wednesday, I just stayed at home...
When I woke up, our home has a tiny bit of Christmas spirit...
Looks like my mom can't take the dullness of our home anymore so she decorated it herself...
The decorations were simple but cute...
Just small balls on the stairs and green leaves and red flowers on the wall...
She also took out the Belen and put it on top of the television...
We have a small plant here in our living room and it's supposed to be the Christmas tree...
But I disagreed so I'm putting the real tree maybe next week...
We don't have Christmas lights cause my mom doesn't want to...
She said it's better to be safe...

Thursday, which is today...
I've finished everything I have to do for Saturday...
I have studied for my short quiz on my first class...
Finished the research for my second class but I still have to print it tomorrow in the computer shop...
And gave up on my home work on my last class...
There's still one question to be answered but I'll just my classmates about it...
I'm too lazy to look for the answer...

Tomorrow is another Chemistry lab...
It will be our last experiment...

My last day of class for this term is December 6...
So I only have a week before everything to end...
After that, I have a 3 week vacation...
Weee...
I can't wait for the term to end...

My mom said last night that we're going to Baguio this vacation...
I'm still not sure when...
But we'll schedule in a day where my brother, Lan, does not have work so he can join us...
It will be a family vacation...

This is all for today...
I've finished New Moon and I'm off to read Eclipse...
Ja...

Presentation + Mic-D + Surprise Exam + Starbucks...

2 more weeks and it will all end...

I'm now relieved because I'm finally finished with my presentation...
I was the very first to present...
It went well...
I just have to read the slides anyway...
But there's something that surprised me...
I wasn't nervous at all while presenting...
Rather I was enjoying it...
I'm really bad at public speaking and I really hate it...
But yesterday, I wasn't at all...
The moment my professor said I can start, I immediately stood up and put my power point presentation on the laptop...
Is it because I like the topic I'm presenting?
Is it because there are only 11 people besides me in the class and I'm comfortable with them?
Or is it because I'm improving at speaking?
I don't know if yesterday was just a special case or that feeling will continue even in future presentations...
But I would really like to improve my speaking skills...

My first class ended early...
Our professor was going to be in a panel for thesis proposal defense so we finished around 10 am instead of 12 noon...
It was still early so we decided to stay and watch the defense instead...
I really wanted to watch because I haven't done it before and I wanna know what should be done in thesis defense...
By the time the clock hit 12 noon, we left the room even though the defense is not yet finished and proceeded to our next class...

In our second class, our professor was panicking...
There's only two weeks left for this term and we still have a LOT to cover in our syllabus...
So instead of doing all the experiments we need to do, she just gave us topics to research and cut the number of experiments we'll do...
In the end, she gave us 2 topics each for research and 2 more experiments to do...
The research is due next Saturday and the lab reports on December 6, same day as our Finals...
Matthew and I are already finished with the electrospinning so we just need to analyze the nanofibers we produced in the Mic-D, as well as other materials as part I of that experiment...
We managed to finish it but again overtime...
We needed to repeat the analysis because of some stupid mistakes while using the Mic-D...
We were late for our last class...

For our last class, we had the biggest surprise...
We had our first long exam in which I have no idea...
I totally forgot about it...
I was so caught up with my presentation and the late homework that I forgot about the exam...
So I asked our professor to gave us some time to review...
Good thing, I brought all my lecture notes...
Then our professor said that exam is open notes...
I was so happy...
I thought I'd fail that exam...
So we started answering only to find out it was all essay...
I managed to answer it but I'm not really sure...
I'm not expecting a good score to come out of it...
About the home work, we told him we weren't able to answer it so he extended the deadline to next week...
We finshed aound 730 pm so we were able to go home early...
Or did we???

My parents are still not back so no one's picking me up...
I'm going home by myself...
I've asked Matthew and the others to accompany me to the train station though and they agreed...
However, while we were walking to the gate...
Someone said we should hang out...
Then someone joked about going to Starbucks, I think it was Matthew...
Don-don and Lean were not really up to the idea because they don't have money...
But Matthew insisted since it's rare for me to go with them after class and no one's to pick me up...
And so we went...
Starbucks is a 5 minute walk from our school...
While walking, we were so noisy, chatting, laughing and scaring each other...
(The way to Starbucks was dark)
Christian was very excited about going to Starbucks...
It's only his 2nd time...
We arrived there, ordered our drinks and chatted...
We were laughing the whole time especially when Christian got his drink...
It wasn't his name written in it...
It turned out that when the cashier girl asked for his name, he said "Douglas", not his real name Christian...
He asked us to take photos of him with the name "Douglas" written on his drink...
It seems like he likes that name a lot...
He thinks it's really cool and appeals to girls...
He talked about it for around 15 minutes...
We left Starbucks around 845 pm...
Matthew and Christian walked me to the station...
Well, the bus station Matthew is going is just behind the train station and Christian is also taking the train home...
I arrived home around 945 pm...

I was planning to start reading New Moon last night...
But I found the leaked chapters of Midnight Sun so I decided to read it first...
It's the same story as Twilight...
Just that it's told from Edward's point of view...
I haven't finished it yet so there's nothing to tell...

It's already 9 pm here and my parents haven't arrived yet...
I'm excited to see them again...
I was lonely without them here at home...
And I'm also looking forward to the strawberries ^_^

Could this be day get any better?or worse?

I finished it...
I finished it...
I finished it...

I finished reading Twilight in a day...
I wasn't supposed to finish it yesterday but I couldn't help it...
I was so eager to know what will happen next or how it will end...
So despite having a class ate 730 am and wake up at 5 am, I finished reading it until 2 am...

The story is really nice...
Edward is so sweet and I like Bella's character...
It's not the usual heroine that needs help or saving all the time...
Although Edward always does...
But she's a string girl, not scared of what might happen to her...
I admire those kinds of girls...
Looks strong on the outside, but cares deeply for the one she loves...

My chemistry lab went fine today...
For the first time, I have nothing to complain about except for Valerie's constant shrieking and babbling about Twilight...
The only way to stop her is to threaten her that I will the spoil the ending...
She still has 3 more chapters to read...
It was an individual work so I was able to concentrate on my own...
It was still about identifying cations and same procedure with the mixing chemicals and then centrifuge...
I finished around 113o so I decided to wait for my best friend, Keziah till 12 so that we can go home together...
While waiting, I managed to finish the prologue of my fanfic and start chapter 1...
I'm still not sure if I'll post it here...
I don't have the confidence and courage...
I'll see how it will progress...

Keziah wasn't replying to my mails so I was worried if she left her phone or not yet read it...
So I decided to just wait outside her room...
And as soon as I arrived outside their room, the door opened and she was there, going out of the room...
What a great timing...
How did we do that?
Anyway, we talked about Twilight until we parted...
We planned to watch the movie with our friends on December 1 which is a holiday here so no school and everyone should be able to go...
Now we just have to inform everyone...

I was doing fine today not until I got home...
I opened my email and found that the home work I've been waiting since Tuesday has just arrived...
It was a 5 question problem set and has to be passed tomorrow...
I started to panic...
How am I supposed to finish it?
Not to mention I didn't understand a bit his lectures...
I tried answering it but I was too sleep deprived that my eyes couldn't keep up anymore...
So I took a nap and asked our helper to wake me up at 53o pm...
I woke up by myself at exactly 530, only to find out that my brother is using my laptop again without permission...
I kept it open before I sleep because I was downloading Last friends...
I hate it when my brother does that...
I don't like him touching my things especially my laptop...
I still couldn't get over the fact that my other brother broke my personal computer June last year and I lost all the precious anime that I downloaded...
I hope he buys his own laptop...
Where the hell does he spend his money?
He's already working but he doesn't give his share in the house...
Just a week after his pay day, he's already asking me or my dad to lend him money...
Yeah, that's right...
He's asking me, the student getting allowance from our dad, to LEND him money, the working salary man...
What's up with that???!!!
It makes me mad...

Anyway, back to the home work...
I started working on it again when I woke up...
I managed to answer the first 3 questions and half of the 4th question...
I'm not sure about my answers though...
But I'm guessing it doesn't matter...
As long as you tried and you wrote something, our professor will give points...
Actually, I think I can still work on the last question but I gave up...
I can't think right...
I also forgot about the other home work we had in that subject...
Good thing, Matthew reminded me...
It was a simple research about the application of diodes and transistors...
Copying and Pasting will do the trick for that...
Does it seem like I'm cheating?
I managed to finish everything I have to do, well, excluding the problem set, but I don't care anymore...

I don't want to go to school tomorrow...
I have a lot to do...
I have powerpoint presentation on substrates, role playing as a team leader on the issue of package delamination, nanofiber and mic-d experiment, passing of home works and research paper...
Another reason is that I'm commuting to school tomorrow...
There's no car to give me a ride nor pick me up...
It will be sooo tiring...
But I can't skip school for the same reason...
I'll miss alot...
I'll be fine...
I can do this...
I have to fight the laziness...

My mom was mailing me the whole day...
She was so bored in Baguio City...
She couldn't go out becasue she's not familiar with it and there's really no place to go aside from the mall...
She gave up after lunch and decide to go to the mall all by herself...
She shopped for clothes and stuff...
She couldn't do that here in Manila so I hope she enjoyed it...
Also, she had steak for lunch and dinner and she kept repeating that...
You don't have to keep saying you had steak, okay?
I know that already and I'm already jealous enough...
Today, she met with my childhood friends who were studying there...
They visited my mom in the hotel and had a good chat...
It's been a long time since I saw them and I really miss them...
Tomorrow, my mom is meeting her half-sister who lives there...
They'll be hanging out maybe all day...
Please enjoy yourself, Mom...

To end this post, I'm giving good news...
The best news I had today...
I got the results for the second quiz of my chemistry laboratory...
And guess what I got...
A 145/150...
Yay...I was so happy...
It's been a long time since I got a really high score...
I think I was the highest...
It was more than enought to compensate for my failed experiment last meeting in which I got a score way way below than the passing (27/50)...
But I don't care about that experiment anymore...
I was really really happy to see my hard work paid off...
I couldn't hide happiness and kept smiling the whole class...
Now that I think about it, maybe that's the reason why I didn't get pissed off today...
Well, that's it for today...
Gotta prepare myself for tomorrow...
Ja...

* I forgot to mention my dragon died AGAIN...
I'm giving up taking care of them...
I'm just wasting their lives...
I'm contented now with pichie and ayachan...

Lonely + Twilight + Wishlist...

I feel lonely right now...
My dad went to Baguio city for a convention and he took my mom with him...
So my parents aren't here now...
They left around 9 this morning and will be back on Sunday...
I really want to go with them but I can't be absent from class...
I have an experiment in chemistry lab tomorrow, role playing, reporting, quiz and experiment on Saturday...
One more thing that pisses me off is that our department was supposed to attend that convention too...
(I think I already mentioned it in my previous posts)
But our student council representative pissed our faculty in charge so she did not permitted it...
How can adults be so childish...

I've started reading Twilight today...
It will take me a looong time to finish it...
I'm still busy with school and other things...

I've decided to post my wishlist...
There's nothing wrong with wishing right...

1. 80 Gb, 120 Gb or 250 Gb external hard disk
2. 512 RAM
3. Notebook Cooling Pad
4. New and smaller mouse
5. Ipod nano holder
6. New pants/clothes
7. Grades 2.00 and above for all my subjects this term
8. New school bag
9. NEWS' Color Album or Pacific Album
10. Christmas Eve with my whole family
11. Skechers' Rubber Shoes
12. Spongecola's New Album

Asking me for help in a subject I don't know + Horror Story part 2...

On to the happy and scary(?) post...

After my very exhausting class, I still stayed at school...
I need the signature of our subject chairperson for the LCD projector borrower's application...
Also, Matthew asked for help in his thermodynamics class...
Good thing, my bestfriend Keziah was with me...
The subject chair still has her class and Matthew is stuck in traffic...
So really no choice but to wait...

It's been weeks since me and Keziah saw each other...
We updated what's happening in our lives and had a great time...
I just realized today that the release of News' Color Album and Keziah's birthday is ON THE SAME DAY...
I've been busy lately that I didn't noticed that...
I asked my bez, as what we call each other, what she wants about a few nights ago and she said nothing...
But a little later, she said she wants to watch Twilight...
And so, we're going to treat her in the day we watch it...
Ummm...maybe next week...
It's kinda hard for the group to gather because we have different schedules...
But for my bez' birthday, we'll try our best ^_^
For the baby of the group, we'll make it a happy and enjoyable day...

The other night, I got to talk to Cis and Allan on yahoo messenger...
We haven't seen Cis for ages and we've been looking for him...
Finally, he told us where he is...
He's in their province, Pampanga and he has dropped from school AGAIN!
He is now working on their fishpond...
He wants to go back to school because he realized that working is so hard and staying in the province is TOO boring...
He misses us and the life in the city...
Oh well, Ganbatte ne, Cis...

Back to the main topic, a while later Matthew arrived...
He was asking me to help me with his home work in thermodynamics...
I though it's something that was discussed before in lower chem subjects...
Something about balancing equations...
Balancing chemical equations is easy so I said yes...
But when I saw the other examples, how come there are charged electrons in the equation...
I haven't encountered it in my previous subjects...
I tried understanding it but I can't...
Matthew kept on cheering me that I can do it because I'm good at those things...
But I really can't...
How am I supposed to understand a topic that I have yet to learn and that even the student himself can't understand?!
Oh, Matthew, I'm not that smart...
There are things that I can't do...
Well, at least not yet...Sorry...

I gave him my theories on where the charged electrons come from...
But we eventually gave up...
It's now all up to YOU...
So I just asked him to continue his series of scary stories...
Right in the middle of the story telling, I felt something on my right side...
When I looked, bez was snuggling on me...
She was getting scared...
It was so cute...hahahahaha

The story goes like this...
Warning: It's not that scary at all and there's no punch line or anything...

A woman went on a vacation and checked-in in hotel. On her first night, she can't sleep because she could hear noises from the room beside hers. She could feel the floor shaking like someone's been jumping up and down. The next day, she complained on the front desk about it. But the hotel staff told he that there's no such thing. And so she continued with her vacation. After lunch, she wanted to take a nap so she went to her room. Again, she could hear noises coming from the other side of the wall. Even after asking the hotel staff about it, the noises still continued so she decided to check it out herself. She stood at the front door of the room and listened first. The noises still continued. She found a key hole below the door knob and she peeked inside the room. From the hole, she could see a normal hotel room with bed, tables and everything. There's just one thing that bothered her. She could also see a girl with reddish eyes jumping up and down on the bed. It looks like the girl is having fun playing with the bed and disturbing other people. The woman thought, "they said there's no such thing, how come there's a girl in there?". Then,a room service employee passed by the woman and asked her if there's anything wrong. The woman said that the girl who is staying in that room is disturbing her and she can't rest well. The employee said it's impossible because that room has been locked for years and is not available for use. She decided to just ignore everything and have a nice nap. Come night time, when it's time for a good night's sleep, she can hear noises again. For one last time, she went to the other to check it out. She peeked into the hole and saw nothing but the color red. She just kept looking at it, then noticed that it's moving farther and farther away from the hole. Then, she realized that she's not looking at the color red anymore but a girl's pale face with blood shot red eyes looking straight at her. After that, the woman lost consciousness. She learned the story about that room the next day when she was about to check out. In that room, a girl has been raped and killed. It's also said that the murderers took out her eyeballs and that's the reason for the blood shot red eyes.

*Sorry I suck at writing stories...
Will do better next time...

I fail at getting mad...

I'm sooo tired, hungry and sleepy when I got home around 3 pm...
We did qualitative analysis of Group II and III cations which has a super long procedure...
And we have to do it twice because of the group work then individual work...
My group mates were late so I started on my own...
I had a hard time doing it...
Even when my group mates arrived, I still did it on my own...
They did not helped me...
I was getting frustrated because even after 2 and a half hours, it's still not finished...
And I still have to my individual work which has the same long procedure as the group work...
I finished it aroung 1030 am...
Then, I proceeded with my own work...
I may look calm on the outside but on the inside, I was already panicking...
I have to finish it by 12 noon...
I managed to finish my work by 12 noon but the preliminary data sheet for the group work was not yet done...
I still have to do it because no one in my group cared to write it...
Grrr...So mad, annoyed, irritated and frustrated...
Our group is the only one left in the room and our professor already left...
But she told me to just submit the reports in the faculty room...
While writing the report, Valerie kept on bugging...
She kept asking me if she did the right thing...
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW?!
I'm not the one who worked with that unknown solution and the results for each of us are different...
Then, she started mumbling that she has a class at 12 noon and she's already late...
She keeps on telling me to hurry up...
That's when I snapped...
(It's only a mild snap, a small shout)...
I said I'm not yet finished with the GROUP report and is she wants to go, then leave...
I'll just pass everything together...
And then she left...
Another thing that pissed me off is that my other group mate, Evan...
He was the last one to arrive around past 9 am...
He didn't do ANYTHING...
He just sat on his chair chatting with his friend...
He did not help with anything...
And he has the guts to leave first and did not even say anything...
Even though he's way older than us doesn't mean he can do anything he wants and he can push around his underclassmen!!!
He should've at least told me he was already leaving...
I'm really grateful to my other group mates, Elaine and Chris especially Elaine...
They both helped me clean up and waited for me...
I felt guilty for Elaine because she has a class but she stayed and said that she's not attending it so that we can finish everything...
Chris returned the apparatus we borrowed in which my ID was used as collateral...
Two micro test tubes were missing so I won't be able to get my ID...
He was the one who looked for it, mailing our other classmates if they have it or if they
broke them...
In the end, we managed to find it and my ID was returned...

I totally suck at getting mad...
I'm having a hard time expressing my feelings of anger...
I'm sensitive to other people's feelings...
I'm very careful with my words...
I always think before I act...
Even if I'm so pissed off, I put up with it...
Or is it that I'm just scared to be disliked?...
Whenever I do or say something bad, I instantly regret it then take it back...
I don't like hurting other people...
You might say I'm a such a goody...
But that's what I really feel...
I easily forget being mad anyway so there's no need to make it big...
It's better to be hurt...
No one knows anyways...

Ne, is it better to tell what you feel honestly even if it means hurting others or just keep it to yourself and put up with it???

*sighs*
This was supposed to be happy post...
What happened, Barbie?
I'll just do another post about what happened after my class...
Ja...

On the Way Home...

Yesterday on our class, I was the last one to went out of the room...
They though I'm scared of the dark so they played a little prank on me...
Our class were the only one left in the building...
They switched off the light and started making weird sounds, calling my name in ghostly voices...
Too bad, I'm not scared of the dark nor of ghosts...
I don't have the ability to see nor feel them...
I want to experience it though...
Don-don was so nice that he waited for me at the door of the room and made sure nothing and no one was left behind...

On the way to the gate, Matthew suddenly started talking about horror stories...
He said he has a lot of them...
So he started telling it to us...
My parents are already waiting outside so he has to make it quick...
The story goes like this...

There is a couple that can't have a child...
So they went to Obando, danced and wished for a child...
Then they went to a fortune teller...
the fortune teller said that they'll be having their first child soon...
She's going to be a white, pretty and smart girl...
When the mother gave birth...
The daughter was nothing like they expected...
The complete opposite of the description the fortune teller gave...
Still, the couple spoiled their child, gave everything she wants...
And on her 3rd birthday, the father asked what she wants...
The daughter said she wanted to go to Baguio City...
Baguio City is on top of a mountain so the road to travel is dangerous...
On the way there, the daughter said she wanted to pee...
There's no gasoline station nor toilets nearby...
So she settled peeing on the side road...
While peeing, the mother pushed her daughter and fell on the cliff...
The daughter died and was forgotten...
Soon after, the couple had another daughter which is white, pretty and smart...
The finally had the daughter they wanted...
On her 3rd birthday, the dad asked her what she wants...
The daughter said she wanted to go to Baguio City...
The same as their first daughter...
Despite their hesitation, they still went and the same thing happened...
The daughter wanted to pee at the same place their first daughter died...
But this time the daughter has something to say to her mother...
The daughter said, "Mom, don't push me again, ok?"...

Hai, the end...
It was predictable to me...
As soon as Matthew said they had their second daughter...
I've already guessed the ending and it turned out I was right...
Maybe I've heard that story somewhere...

I'm not scared of real ghosts and I love horror stories...
But I'm a scaredy cat when it comes to human made horror houses...
I don't know why...
Maybe real life humans are scarier than the dead ones...

Anyway, when we went out of the gate...
I immediately saw my parents...
They were having a date at the walls in front of my school...
Hahaha...They look like teenagers, walking around the walls...
Well, I'm happy they're getting along well ^_^

Also, looks like my brothers are getting along well now...
My eldest brother, Ray, asked my other brother, Lan, to help him with his model who's going to join a beauty contest...
My brother, Ray, is attending a party so he won't be able to accompany his model, so he asked Kuya Lan instead...
The good thing is they're not fighting anymore...
They used to fight a lot...
Oh, correct that one...
We used to fight a lot even about very small things...
Just being near each other is so irritating...
Kuya Lan even left the house June last year when they fought...

I hope my family stays like this forever...

Tegoshi's Birthday...

Weee...
It's Tegoshi's 21st birthday today...^_^

Happy Happy Birthday Tegoshi Yuya!!!


I'm still having problems with sleep...
Good thing, I don't have class today...
So I was able to sleep longer...
I woke up around 230 in the afternoon...

I'm kinda panicking right now...
The substrate research I had to do is due in 2 weeks...
So far I have only written 4 pages...
The minimum is 15 pages...
I'll aim to finish it by Sunday...
I guess I won't have time to practice hiragana for now...

I don't have anything interesting to talk about today...
Just wanna greet Tegoshi that's why I made a post...
I'm off now...
Have to write my research...
Ja...

Sleep...

I've been having hard time to sleep again these days...
It takes me about two hours after lying in bed to be able to sleep...
Last night, I went to bed at 1 am...
But I was able to sleep around 3...
And I have to wake up this morning at 5 for my 730 class...
So I only had 2 hours of sleep...
I was so sleepy and irritable...

I had an experiment about qualitative analysis of Group I cations in chem lab...
It's simple and easy but long...
The procedure is repetitive and kind of boring...
We just have to mix chemicals, see if precipitate is formed, put it in the centrifuge then separate the precipitate from the liquid...
This was repeated until no precipitate is formed...
First, it was a group work...
However, I was the only one who did it for the group...
It will be much easier because they keep on asking what to do even though there's a copy of the procedure in front of them...
Next is the individual work...
It's a replacement for the final report...
We were given unknown solutions and we have to identify the ion present in it...
The procedure was the same as the group work...
Although it's individual work and they should have seen what I did for the group work...
They keep on asking every time what to do next...
Grrr...I was sooo annoyed...
Here I was doing my own individual work and you want me to look after what you're doing!!!
Not to mention I was irritable and sleepy because of lack of sleep...
They were even fooling around and telling me that I should just let them copy because they don't know what to do...
For God's sake, the procedure is in front of you!
You just have to read and follow it...
Besides it's repetitive...
Is that hard for a 20 to 23 year old student?!
I though I was going to snap this morning...
But nothing good will come of it and it will just turn into a big mess...
So I just kept quiet, continued with my work and "accidentally" ignore them...

Checking time comes...
We got a perfect score of 30 for the group work...
But for the individual works, our professor returned the papers and told us to fix it...
It seems my group mates did not understand the experiment and cannot distinguish yellow solution from yellow precipitate...
There are 3 choices for the ions which are lead, silver and mercury...
How come you wrote a precipitate was not formed in the box for identifying silver and wrote that silver ion was present in the solution?!
What's up with that?!
Valerie was even asking me if her work had a yellow precipitate or yellow solution and if her work is correct...
How the hell am I supposed to know?
You're the one who did it...
I didn't even saw what you did...
In the end, we all got perfect scores...Yay...

Our quiz last Friday hasn't been returned...
I'm excited to see my score though...
But experiment 5 was returned...
I got a 69/100...
Again, a point away from passing...
But it's okay...
I got a 78/100 in experiment 4 anyway...
If I get the average of all the returned experiments, it's above 70 which is the passing score...

We won't be meeting on Friday because there's an event in school...
I'm not sure what it's called this year but it was called Mapua Unplugged and Mapua On Sale the previous years...
There will be booths, music, contests and food stalls...
But since, I don't have class and nothing to do at school, I won't be attending it...
I'd rather finish my substrate research than waste time there...
My friends will be having classes anyway...

I translated 2 songs again today while waiting...
After my class, I went to our department...
Because I need the signature of our (temporary) department head for the application for borrowing LCD projector...
She wasn't there so the assistant just asked me to return for it after lunch...
I waited (without eating lunch) and waited...
I returned to the department around 130 pm and still no sign of her...
The assistant told me that maybe she's in the chemistry department...
So I went there and there she is, checking test papers...
I learned that she's not really from our department...
But faculty member of the chemistry department...
She's just borrowed from there for this term because our department lacks faculty members...
Then, I had her sign and filed the application, got approved and went home...

I was so hungry and sleepy when I arrived home around 3 pm...
Ate lunch, lie on the couch and eventually fell asleep...
I woke up around 6 pm because my mom was kicking me...
Her foot was on the arm rest of the couch and she's kicking me to wake me up cause it's time for dinner...
My mom always does that...
She kicks me, pinches me or tickles me to wake me up...

My dad will be home late tonight cause they have a high school reunion...
He called earlier before dinner to inform my mom about their trip...
My dad will be attending a Mines Safety Convention in Baguio City on November 20 to 22...
And my mom will be coming with him...
I really want to go to but I have class...
I'll be left alone again :(

We were supposed to go in that convention too but it wasn't approved...
Even the simple field trip wasn't approved...
I guess it can't be helped since the president of our student council is busy with her thesis...
Just have to wait for other activities...

Food, food, food...

Today we had my favorite food for lunch, SHRIMPS...
We rarely eat shrimps in our home because...
First, it's expensive...
It costs about 350 pesos for 1/4 kilo...
Second, I'm allergic to them...
Whenever I eat them, my asthma attacks later especially when I was still a kid...
Thankfully I don't have much attacks now...

Last night, my mom said that she has a surprise for me in the refrigerator...
So as soon as we arrived home, I checked it out...
And there was a red rectangular box with a cake inside...
It's mango cashew roll...
I've been craving for it since I saw it on the television several months ago...
This afternoon we ate it for snack...
It was sooo yummy...
The icing was not too sweet...
Maybe because it was made from butter, not sugar...
Even my mom liked it so much...
But it was so small...
I still want more...
I'll ask my brother to buy it sometime...^_^

After reading a lot of fics...
I've been thinking to start writing again...
I used to write poems and short stories when I was still in elementary...
My teachers even encouraged me to continue doing it when I transferred schools...
But I guess I just became lazy and lost the ability...
I still wrote some poems in high school...
They're just simple poems about my family, friends, last year in high school and random things...
And I think I've lost some of them...
So I was thinking of the topic to write...
Just now, I decided to write something about myself...
I don't know if it will be enough to let other people read...
But I'll try my best...

I got a dragon and it will hatch in 4 days...

Drained...

I was feeling lazy yesterday so I did not post anything...
Anyway, here's what my yesterday was...

I was tired, drained, exhausted, and full when I arrived home last night...
For my first class, I had my long exam...
It was quite easy for me because I studied hard for it...
I was able to answer the diagrams and essay part...
But the modified true or false was tricky...
Aside from writing if it's true or false...
We even have to underline the words or phrases that makes the statement false...
And write the correct words above it...
I spent most of the time in that part...
I enjoyed the answering the essay part...
I though the questions were cool...
There were 3 questions...
The first question was "state at least 5 engineeering/scientific concepts and it direct applications in the IC technology"...
The second question was "Is the cost of controlling the environment used in wafer technology justifiable?"...
And the third question was "as a materials engineer, what can you do to reduce the cost of producing a pure silicon?"...
These questions really made me think as a future materials engineer...
These are the type of questions that I will face when I practice my field...
These made me realize that I should start thinking in a materials engineer's point of view...
And the career I chose is not to be taken for granted...

After the exam, we had a 15 minute break...
(Although, we did not come back after 15 minutes but 30 minutes)
I checked my phone and saw the message from my professor in my next class...
I was surprised to see her message...
It said like this:
"We're having a very LONG EXAM today. Please prepare a large booklet."
We didn't hear anything about that!
We're not prepared!
She should have mailed us at least last Thursday...
But she did not...
She informed us just in the morning...
Talk about super cramming...

Good thing, I brought my lecture for the previous meeting...
But it's not complete...
We still need to study the previous lectures....
And Matthew lost his phone which contains the previous lectures just last Wednesday...
So bad luck...

We thought we won't have time to review...
Fortunately, our professor was called to the faculty room...
Some graduating students were defending their thesis and he (the professor in our first class) was invited...
So he went there and gave us time to study for the next subject...

Our professor for the 2nd class was an hour late...
Although there was time to study it was still not enough...
I was already drained that few information is getting inside my head...
Then, I gave up...
I decided to just go with the flow and do better in the next exam...
The exam was all essay...
There were 7 numbers...
I'm sure about my answer for about 3 numbers...
For the other 3 questions, I just wrote what came to my mind...
I hope my professor would give effort points...
For the last number, I was only able to answer half of it...
It was asking us to draw the schematic diagram of transmission electron microscope, scanning electron microscope and optical microscope as well as differentiate them...
I was able to differentiate them but I totally had no idea about the schematic diagram...
I did not even looked at it when I was scanning my notes...
At least I learned something...
My professor loves to give surprise exams...
So I have to study before every class...

For my last class, I received a mail from Lean (forwarded message from our professor) that he will not be coming...
(Lean did not come to class and she's not answering why)
So the class was cancelled...
We'll just be having a make up class on Thursday from 6 to 8 pm...
I mailed my dad to pick me up cause I don't have class anymore...
I though I'll be waiting alone but Matthew and Don-don joined me...
We waited for an hour and they did not mind it...
We just chatted and laughed while waiting...
We talked about random things...
And I got Matthew to talk about his girlfriend...
Well, the real reason why they joined me is:
Don-don can't go home to his dorm...
He indirectly got involved in a big fight last Thursday...
And he's kinda scared...
Matthew is waiting for his girlfriend...
She's watching her relative in the hospital until 9 pm...
They'll be going home together...
Still they are such nice friends...
When my parents arrived...
They even accompanied me to the car...
Really had a great time...

Then as usual, me and my parents went again somewhere...
This time, we went to duty free...
It's closing at 9 pm so we were in a hurry...
We only bought food, food and food...
We don't need anything else anyway...
As for me, I saw a watch that I liked...
It's cheap so my dad bought it...
My mom was whining that she wasn't able to buy anything...
And I was the one who bought something again...
She was saying "lagi nalang si Barbie"(It's always Barbie)...
Hahaha...She was so cute acting like a kid...
The same thing happened when we went to Baguio...
I bought a lot and she wasn't to buy anything...
I told her "How can you buy when you don't want and don't like anything?"...
Well, that's my mom...
But I really like her shoes...
She won't lend it to me :(
She's even keeping it in its box in their room and not in the shoe rack...
And I also like the new rubber shoes of my dad...
I really like the color, white and baby blue...
Like my mom, he's also keeping it in its box in their room...
He said he's only gonna use it if he goes out of the country...
What's up with my parents and their new shoes?!

After duty free, we went to the mall to eat...
I was so full...
We really ate a lot...
We ordered filipino dishes which we haven't eaten for a long time...
The coconut juice we drank taste awful though...
It tasted like medicine...

My mom and I are suspecting that my dad already got an increase in his salary...
He paid everything in cash yesterday...
Even the ones we bought in duty free which were in US dollars but converted to Philippine Peso when being paid...
My mom was saying something about my dad withdrawing money from ATM and still the balance was many, something like that...
My dad was telling us about the evaluation they had with their country manager...
And he got a 4 out of 5...
The only one who got a perfect score was their country manager...
(He evaluated himself so that's to be expected, right?)
So my dad is hoping to get an increase in January...
Maybe he already got it, maybe not...
Well, we can only hope...

I'm really happy mom is helping with talks to my dad...
He talked to my dad about me saving money for my studies in Japan...
She was even telling exaggerated stories like maybe I'm not eating anymore to save my allowance which is partly true...
I even opened an ebay account to sell the things I don't use anymore and of course to earn money...
Last night, my mom gave me the blouses that does not fit her anymore and told me to sell it...
This noon, my dad suddenly gave me the shirts that he does not wear anymore and told me to sell it too...
Sooo happy...
I feel that he now understands that I really really want to study there...
My mom just told me now that she's expecting my dad to give me more allowance...
Somehing like "here, deposit this in your bank account for your studies"...
I hope that really happens...

I wrote a lot today...
That was my day yesterday and today...
I'm off to church now to attend mass...
Mata ne ^_^