Whenever...

Whenever you feel alone...
Always remember that I am here...
I will never forget...
The precious moment we've been together...

Whenever you feel down...
Just look at the mirror...
Take a very close look...
And say that I can do it...

Whenever you feel abandoned...
Someone out there's ready to adopt you...
You may not notice it...
But I am always at your side...

Whenever you feel lonely...
I'm here to cheer you up...
Through happiness and sadness...
I'm ready to be with you...

Loneliness...

Those days seem so long...
The house is quiet...
I'm longing for your voice...
Please come back soon...

I always get mad and annoyed by your demands...
Shouting errands left and right, not one after the other, but at the same time...
And whenever they're not met...
You always get mad...

But now, you're not here with me...
You're in some other place relaxing...
And here I am left all alone...
I try to ignore the loneliness...
But it really feels empty inside...

Every morning I wake up in eerie silence...
I'm so focused with going to school...
And later realize that I am all alone...
It's not scary for me...
But I feel so lonely that I lose energy to go to school...

When I go back home from school...
The house is empty...
My brothers' leaving me alone...
With no one to talk to or play with...

I thought I'll be happier alone...
But now I realize that that's not the case...
I realize that having you around is much more comfortable and easier...
So from now on, I'm gonna treasure and take care of you...

Been busy for the past few days...

Here's an update of what's happening in real life so far...

Friday, 19th of December...
I went to school to enroll for the next term...
The offices were only until 5 pm so I wasn't able to finish the process...
I had to go back the next day for the payment...
I was grateful that my friends, Keziah, Kat, Shid and Allan waited for me...
Then we went to SM Manila...
We first checked the cinema, what movies are shown and the time they'll be starting...
We decided to watch "Quarantine" through the time it will be starting which is in an hour and it's only movie playing that none of us have watched yet...
So we bought tickets for the 7:05 pm showing and went to grab lunch/dinner in one in Chowking...
Shid, Allan, Keziah and me ordered the salo-salo set meal while Kat ordered her own food...
We ate a lot...
We were so hungry cause we've been in school since lunch time and none of us ate lunch...
After eating there's still time so we just strolled the mall...
I bought a DVD set of the Harry Potter movies from 1 to 5...
After that, we bought snacks, popcorn and drinks and went to the cinema...
Around 8 pm, Keziah left because she has to go home already...
She did not finished the movie so she missed the ending...
It was a nice movie...
We kept screaming while watching...
This get together is to celebrate Keziah's birthday which was November 19th, Allan's birthday which was December 15th and Kat's upcoming birthday on December 30th...
After the movie, my dad called and said they'll pick me up...
Shid's home is on the way to our home so he went with us...
It's been a long time since me and my friends got together...
I had so much fun and I missed them so much...
After 4 years of being friends with each other, there are things that I realized in our group...
First, enrollment is the only time we really get together on a regular basis...
Second, during this time we ALWAYS end up eating in Chowking (this isn't on purpose)...
Third, all of us loves to watch movies in the cinema...
At least, there are things we ALL enjoy doing together...^_^

Saturday, 20th of December...
After lunch, I went to school with my parents to pay for my enrollment...
I'm an academic half-scholar this term, by the way, which I only have to pay half of my tuition fee...
But I never told my dad...
I have a pretty good reason to keep it from him although I really wanted to tell him...
After I paid, we went to Manila Ocean Park...
There wasn't a lot of people wo decided to enter...
My dad bought the Christmas Package ticket which includes the Glass Bottom Boat Ride and Fish Spa...
There are different kinds of fishes...
It was fun at first but became boring because the fishes became repetitive...
There's not much of variations...
Oh well, at least we were able to enter the facility...
Then we went home to eat dinner...
After dinner, we went to the grocery to buy our weekly supplies and the food for Noche Buena...
At first, I really did not want to go with my parents because I was already tired...
But I got worried because they might buy the wrong ingredients for our Noche Buena in which I'll be the one who will cook and prepare, so I went with them...
Luckily, we were able to buy everything I need...

Sunday, 21st of December...
We attended mass at 3:30 pm...
Our maid is going home to the province for 4 days so we drove her to the bus terminal...
She immediately found a ticket and boarded the bus...
She said she'll come back and I really do hope she comes back...
We're the same age and I like her...
After that we went to the mall, Robinsons Pioneer...
I was supposed to buy my brother an MP3 player but it turned out to be expensive...
So I dropped the idea...
In the end, I wasn't able to buy anything...
We just ate in Old Spahgetti House for dinner...
At least, I came out full from the mall...

Monday (today), 22nd of December...
My mom woke me up because we agreed to go buy gifts for Christmas...
First, we went to the bank to deposit money...
Goint to the salon was also ony my schedule today...
I was planning to get my hair colored and permed but my mom said it will take more than an hour...
Besides, I don't go out much anyway so we rescheduled it on January 2...
After the bank, we went to the mall...
We ate lunch first in Chowking again...
Then, we bought presents for the whole family...
I invited my cousin to spend the Christmas eve with us and they will, so I also bought presents for them...
I'll tell you what I bought for them after Christmas...
When we got home, I wrapped them in gift wrappers and put them under the Christmas tree...
So now, our tree is overflowing with gifts...

Some of the gifts under the Christmas tree

Grades + Birthday + Plans

I finally got my grades...
1.00 in Semiconductor Materials and Processes...
2.00 in Analytical Techniques in Materials and Science Engineering...
1.25 in Principles of Semiconductor Devices...
3.00 in General Chemistry Laboratory 2...
General Average : 1.70

I was so disappointed with my grade in chem lab...
I was actually expecting a high grade...
I even had a 145/150 quiz in that subject and I only got 3.00 which is equivalent to 70% which is the passing grade!!!
I did not expect that our professor gives such low grade...
Almost half of the class failed...
Ugh...I can't get over it...
I wasn't really expecting it...
Where did she get our grades?!

Today is Allan's birthday...
And I planned a celebration for him...
We were supposed to go to Star City but looks like our other friends were not interested...
I already informed them of the plan weeks ago and they said yes...
I was contacting them yesterday to finalize but no one is replying my mails...
In the end, it was cancelled...
I felt really bad...
First, I really want us to get together and have fun...
Second, I want Allan to celebrate his birthday because last year it was only him and Shid when they went to Enchanted Kingdom...
Third, I want to go to Star City with them...
So Allan and me just agreed to watch a movie and eat on enrollment, probably on Friday...
This time, I'll make sure it goes well...

I have 2 weeks ahead of me with nothing to do...
I finished all the Twilight books so now I'll start with Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows...
I'll probably finish it in 3 days...

My mom said that my dad is planning to buy me a Christmas gift...
She said he'll probably buy me the external hard disk I want...
Knowing my dad, I guess it's just all talk...
I'll just have to wait for it...
Also about the trip to Baguio City, I think it won't happen...
I asked him the other day and he gave me a silent treatment...
Translation: It's not happening...

I can't think of anything to say anymore...
So this is it for now...
Ja...

3 down, 1 more to go...

It's almost over...

I had my personal hell last week...
I didn't have class from Monday till Thusday so I was able to finish everything by Friday...
For Friday, I had my last quiz for Chemistry lab, Experiment 10 final report and Portfolio...
For Saturday, I had finals and research for my first subject, Semiconductor Materials and Processes...
As for my subject, Analytical Techniques, I also had my finals, lab report for electrospinning and optical microscopy and exercises for the other techniques...
I'm done with my 3 subjects...
I only have to wait for my grade on Sunday which I hope are all passing grades...
Well, I expect to pass all of them anyway...
I completed all the requirements and I studied hard for my exams...

I still be having my finals for one more subject which is Semiconductor Devices...
I hate that subject...
I don't understand it at all...
I just pretend that I'm listening during lecture but I'm really not...
It's like I'm there physically but absent mentally...
My mind is wandering off somewhere...
But I have no choice...
I have to force myself to study for it maybe by Thursday...
Good luck to me...

Yesterday, we went to church and I was asked to offer during the offertory...
At first, I was in shock...
The ones who offer during the mass are picked randomly so I wasn't expecting it at all...
What was their criteria for picking???
So I proceeded to offer...

Today, we went to mass again...
It's the feast of the Immaculate Concepcion so it's a holy day of obligation...
After the mass, we went to eat dinner and walked home although it's a bit far...
It was nice to have some exercise and I sweat a bit...

So I have a pretty free week ahead of me...
I'll start studying on Thursday...
As for the free days, I guess I'll just look for something to do...

Your rainbow is strongly shaded blue.

What is says about you: You are a tranquil person. You appreciate friends who get along with one another. You share hobbies with friends and like trying to fit into their routines.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

Sorry...

To my friends who will be watching Twilight with me on Monday,

Sorry, I cheated. My groupmate, Valerie, was babbling about the whole chemistry laboratory class. On how she didn't liked it, and a lot was cut from the book, and everything. And I just had to really see what the movie is like. So, since we finished early, I went to SM and watched Twilight all by myself. I even skipped lunch. I'm still coming on Monday cause I wanna watch it again. For now, I promise to keep my thoughts to myself and not give any spoilers. Please forgive me.

Barbie

Laziness...

I've been very lazy this past few days to update...
I don't even want to move but I have no choice because I have a ton of school work...
So I'll just give a brief summary of what happened this week...

Monday is the usual...
Had an experiment in chem lab class...
Our group was the first one to finish, thanks to the groups' really good cooperation, so we got to go home early...
Probably around 10 am...
I went home even though I was supposed to wait someone in school...
It's too early and the person I'm waiting will be arriving at 1 pm...
So I took the risk, went home and said to myself that I'll just go to school the next day even if I don't have class...

Tuesday, I went to school even though I don't have class...
Well, we're supposed to have a meeting with our department head to decide next term's schedule and subjects...
Only to find out that Matthew and the others already went home and our department head does not have class so she'll probably not come to school...
However, the student assistant said to wait because our dept. head is supposed to go to school but hasn't arrived yet...
So I waited and good thing, I saw my friends (Keziah and the others)...
We went to lunch and then we checked for our dept. head again...
She still hasn't arrived so the assisstant just asked me to leave the documents to be signed...
So I left it and went home...

Wednesday, I just stayed at home...
When I woke up, our home has a tiny bit of Christmas spirit...
Looks like my mom can't take the dullness of our home anymore so she decorated it herself...
The decorations were simple but cute...
Just small balls on the stairs and green leaves and red flowers on the wall...
She also took out the Belen and put it on top of the television...
We have a small plant here in our living room and it's supposed to be the Christmas tree...
But I disagreed so I'm putting the real tree maybe next week...
We don't have Christmas lights cause my mom doesn't want to...
She said it's better to be safe...

Thursday, which is today...
I've finished everything I have to do for Saturday...
I have studied for my short quiz on my first class...
Finished the research for my second class but I still have to print it tomorrow in the computer shop...
And gave up on my home work on my last class...
There's still one question to be answered but I'll just my classmates about it...
I'm too lazy to look for the answer...

Tomorrow is another Chemistry lab...
It will be our last experiment...

My last day of class for this term is December 6...
So I only have a week before everything to end...
After that, I have a 3 week vacation...
Weee...
I can't wait for the term to end...

My mom said last night that we're going to Baguio this vacation...
I'm still not sure when...
But we'll schedule in a day where my brother, Lan, does not have work so he can join us...
It will be a family vacation...

This is all for today...
I've finished New Moon and I'm off to read Eclipse...
Ja...

28 Reasons why Twilight the movie is better than the book...

1. First of all, the demands of compressing a 500-page book into a two-hour movie mean that most of the boring scenes of Edward brooding about stuff have been cut. In fact, for the entire middle third of the movie, Edward seems happy most of the time, which Robert Pattinson frankly plays a lot better than he does the dark, serious looks.

2. The movie adds an amazing sequence in which Edward takes Bella to the top of an enormous tree for a view of the mountains and river below. It actually totally rules.

3. In the movie, vampires make an unnecessary but awesome whooshing sound when they jump around.

4. Bella's new friends in Forks have been given the Catherine Hardwicke treatment: They're cooler, funnier, more multicultural, and way more interesting than they are in the book, where they're mostly there to serve as distractions that Bella ignores on her way to Edward. For instance, Eric -- described in the book as "a gangly boy with skin problems" who's "the overly-helpful chess-club type" -- turns into a hip, attractive Gaysian. And when everyone goes to the beach, they don't just take boring walks to the tide pools; they go surfing!

5. Who knew Charlie's mustache was so awesome?

6. At the movie, you get to hear teenage girls shrieking, "I love you, Edward!!!" before the opening credits even begin.

7. We predict at least one actual Team Edward vs. Team Jacob riot in a movie theater somewhere in America; the rivalry gets much more visceral with audience members cheering the arrival of their heroes.

8. While the baseball scene can't completely avoid seeming like the campy miscalculation it is, we love that the vampires wear old-timey baseball uniforms.

9. There are jokes! Like, people tell jokes! Instead of just glumly or romantically talking about things! Bella and Edward even tell jokes to each other!

10. We guess because the movie was made by non-Mormons, there's a joke about Speedo-stuffing! And two jokes about boobs.

11. For no apparent reason, the alluring young waitress who can't stop flirting with Edward in Port Angeles has been transformed into a weird hipster chick with a hilarious bouffant.

12. When Edward explains to Bella that he can read thoughts, he points around the restaurant and tells her what everyone's thinking about: "Money ... sex ... sex ... money ... cat."

13. In a touching ode to primitive research technology, Bella actually reads a little bit about vampires in a book! Before going straight to Google.

14. Unlike in Twilight the book, in which Edward's afraid to even describe a hunt, we actually get to see Edward chase down a deer in the movie.

15. When Bella visits Edward's family, they charmingly attempt to cook her a meal. "We finally get to use the kitchen!" Dr. Cullen says.

16. The wall of the Cullens' house features a cute mural made up of dozens of the vampires' high-school graduation caps.

17. Due to Edward's chastity, at every point in the movie where you're expecting a sex scene, the filmmakers are forced to show long sequences of Edward and Bella lying down and staring soulfully at each other. They're even shot just like sex scenes! It's impossible to explain just how funny this is onscreen.

18. It really drives home the book's overarching message of the dangers of female sexuality when we actually see flushed temptress Bella, late at night in her bedroom, forcing herself upon Edward and the poor innocent vampire flinging himself against a wall to keep himself in check.

19. When Bella's mom hears that her daughter has a boyfriend, she demands, "Are you being safe?" We foresee a whole new tie-in line of armor-plated Twilight condoms!

20. At no point in the movie does this scene occur. (Referencing the "YOU MADE ME FAINT!" scene).

21. Also, this scene was cut, thank God. (Referencing the "You're intoxicated by my very presence" crazy).

22.In general, we're just so relieved that the movie did away with most of the 1,000 scenes in which basically this exact thing happens:

Bella: Don't go!
Edward: I should go, but I can't.
Bella: I am happy!
Edward: You're an idiot for being happy.
Bella: You are still totally gorgeous OMG OMG.

23. The other vampires - Laurent, Victoria, and James - don't just appear out of nowhere on page 375 because Stephenie Meyer belatedly realized something needed to happen. They make appearances throughout the movie, hunting and killing humans, which gives the movie not only little bursts of much-needed action but at least a game attempt at some suspense.

24. There's an actual fight scene between Edward and James, instead of Bella just passing out and getting told about it later. Mostly it's just them throwing each other through windows and crap, but in a story that's totally starved for action it's nice that they tried.

25. The movie answers in seconds a burning question the book never bothered to address: Do vampires in Twilight have reflections? Spoiler: Yes, they do!

26. Uh, Alice jumps onto James and TOTALLY BREAKS HIS NECK!

27. Movie prom is set in a gorgeous, opulent building with a twinkling gazebo for Edward and Bella's final dance! Book prom takes place in the gym.

28. "And so the lion fell in love with the lamb," Bella says. In the book, you just roll your eyes. In the movie theater, everyone cheers wildly.

How to install LOVE???

Read this from a friend's site. I find it cute. Read it!

How to Install Love?
Could it be possible?
Can we?


Read the following


conversation then try to follow the steps given by the Acting customer
care representative.


Customer Service (CS) Rep. : Yes, Ma'am, how can I
help you today?
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided
to install LOVE.
Can you guide me through the process?

CS Rep. : Yes, I can help you. Are you ready to
proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think
I'm ready to install now. What do I do first?

CS Rep. : The first step is to open your HEART. Have
you located your HEART ma'am?

Customer: Yes I have, but there are several other
programs running right now.
Is it okay to install while they are running?

CS Rep. : What programs are running ma'am?

Customer: Let's see, I have PAST-HURT.EXE,
LOW-ESTEEM.EXE, GRUDGE.EXE,
and RESENTMENT.COM running right now.

CS Rep. : No problem. LOVE will gradually erase
PAST-HURT.EXE from your current
operating system. It may remain in your permanent
memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs.
LOVE will eventually overwrite
LOW-ESTEEM.EXE with a module of its own called
HIGH-ESTEEM. EXE. However, you have to completely turn
off GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM.
Those programs prevent LOVE from being properly installed.
Can you turn those off ma'am?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you
tell me how?

CS Rep. : My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and
invoke FORGIVENESS. EXE.
Do this as many times as necessary until GRUDGE.EXE
and RESENTMENT.COM have
been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done. LOVE has started installing
itself automatically. Is that normal?

CS Rep. : Yes. You should receive a message that says
it will reinstall for the life of your HEART.
Do you see that message?

Customer: Yes I! do. Is it completely installed?

CS Rep. : Yes, but remember that you have only the
base program.
You need to begin connecting to other HEART's in order
to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops. I have an error message already. What
should I do?

CS Rep. : What does the message say?

Customer: It says "ERROR 412 - PROGRAM NOT RUN ON
INTERNAL COMPONENTS."
What does that mean?

CS Rep. : Don't worry ma'am, that's a common problem.
It means that the LOVE program is set
up to run on external HEARTS but has not yet been run
on your HEART. It is one of those
complicated programming things, but in non-technical
terms it means you have to "LOVE" your
own machine before it can "LOVE" others.

Customer: So what should I do?

CS Rep. : Can you pull down the directory called
"SELF-ACCEPTANCE" ?

Customer: Yes, I have it.

CS Rep. : Excellent. You're getting good at this.

Customer: Thank you.

CS Rep. : You're welcome. Click on the following files
and then copy them to the "MYHEART"
directory: FORGIVE-SELF. DOC, REALIZE-WORTH. TXT, and
ACKNOWLEDGE-LIMITATIONS. DOC.
The system will overwrite any
conflicting files and begin patching any faulty
programming. Also, you need to delete
VERBOSE-SELF- CRITIC.EXE from all directories, and
then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it
is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My HEART is filling up with new
files. SMILE.MPG is playing on my
monitor right now and it shows that PEACE.EXE, and
CONTENTMENT. COM are copying
themselves all over my HEART. Is this normal?

CS Rep. : Sometimes. For others it takes a while, but
eventually everything gets downloaded at
the proper time. So, LOVE is installed and running.
You should be able to handle it from here.
One more thing before I go.

Customer: Yes?

CS Rep. : LOVE is freeware. Be sure to give it and its
various modules to everybody you meet.
They will in turn share it with other people and they
will return some similarly cool modules back to you.

Customer: I will. Thanks for your help. By the way,
what's your name?

CS Rep. : You can call me the Divine Cardiologist,
also known as The Great Physician, but most
call me God. Most people feel all they need is an
annual checkup to stay heart-healthy, but the
manufacturer (Me) suggests a schedule of daily
maintenance for maximum efficiency.
Put another way, keep in touch.......

Presentation + Mic-D + Surprise Exam + Starbucks...

2 more weeks and it will all end...

I'm now relieved because I'm finally finished with my presentation...
I was the very first to present...
It went well...
I just have to read the slides anyway...
But there's something that surprised me...
I wasn't nervous at all while presenting...
Rather I was enjoying it...
I'm really bad at public speaking and I really hate it...
But yesterday, I wasn't at all...
The moment my professor said I can start, I immediately stood up and put my power point presentation on the laptop...
Is it because I like the topic I'm presenting?
Is it because there are only 11 people besides me in the class and I'm comfortable with them?
Or is it because I'm improving at speaking?
I don't know if yesterday was just a special case or that feeling will continue even in future presentations...
But I would really like to improve my speaking skills...

My first class ended early...
Our professor was going to be in a panel for thesis proposal defense so we finished around 10 am instead of 12 noon...
It was still early so we decided to stay and watch the defense instead...
I really wanted to watch because I haven't done it before and I wanna know what should be done in thesis defense...
By the time the clock hit 12 noon, we left the room even though the defense is not yet finished and proceeded to our next class...

In our second class, our professor was panicking...
There's only two weeks left for this term and we still have a LOT to cover in our syllabus...
So instead of doing all the experiments we need to do, she just gave us topics to research and cut the number of experiments we'll do...
In the end, she gave us 2 topics each for research and 2 more experiments to do...
The research is due next Saturday and the lab reports on December 6, same day as our Finals...
Matthew and I are already finished with the electrospinning so we just need to analyze the nanofibers we produced in the Mic-D, as well as other materials as part I of that experiment...
We managed to finish it but again overtime...
We needed to repeat the analysis because of some stupid mistakes while using the Mic-D...
We were late for our last class...

For our last class, we had the biggest surprise...
We had our first long exam in which I have no idea...
I totally forgot about it...
I was so caught up with my presentation and the late homework that I forgot about the exam...
So I asked our professor to gave us some time to review...
Good thing, I brought all my lecture notes...
Then our professor said that exam is open notes...
I was so happy...
I thought I'd fail that exam...
So we started answering only to find out it was all essay...
I managed to answer it but I'm not really sure...
I'm not expecting a good score to come out of it...
About the home work, we told him we weren't able to answer it so he extended the deadline to next week...
We finshed aound 730 pm so we were able to go home early...
Or did we???

My parents are still not back so no one's picking me up...
I'm going home by myself...
I've asked Matthew and the others to accompany me to the train station though and they agreed...
However, while we were walking to the gate...
Someone said we should hang out...
Then someone joked about going to Starbucks, I think it was Matthew...
Don-don and Lean were not really up to the idea because they don't have money...
But Matthew insisted since it's rare for me to go with them after class and no one's to pick me up...
And so we went...
Starbucks is a 5 minute walk from our school...
While walking, we were so noisy, chatting, laughing and scaring each other...
(The way to Starbucks was dark)
Christian was very excited about going to Starbucks...
It's only his 2nd time...
We arrived there, ordered our drinks and chatted...
We were laughing the whole time especially when Christian got his drink...
It wasn't his name written in it...
It turned out that when the cashier girl asked for his name, he said "Douglas", not his real name Christian...
He asked us to take photos of him with the name "Douglas" written on his drink...
It seems like he likes that name a lot...
He thinks it's really cool and appeals to girls...
He talked about it for around 15 minutes...
We left Starbucks around 845 pm...
Matthew and Christian walked me to the station...
Well, the bus station Matthew is going is just behind the train station and Christian is also taking the train home...
I arrived home around 945 pm...

I was planning to start reading New Moon last night...
But I found the leaked chapters of Midnight Sun so I decided to read it first...
It's the same story as Twilight...
Just that it's told from Edward's point of view...
I haven't finished it yet so there's nothing to tell...

It's already 9 pm here and my parents haven't arrived yet...
I'm excited to see them again...
I was lonely without them here at home...
And I'm also looking forward to the strawberries ^_^

Could this be day get any better?or worse?

I finished it...
I finished it...
I finished it...

I finished reading Twilight in a day...
I wasn't supposed to finish it yesterday but I couldn't help it...
I was so eager to know what will happen next or how it will end...
So despite having a class ate 730 am and wake up at 5 am, I finished reading it until 2 am...

The story is really nice...
Edward is so sweet and I like Bella's character...
It's not the usual heroine that needs help or saving all the time...
Although Edward always does...
But she's a string girl, not scared of what might happen to her...
I admire those kinds of girls...
Looks strong on the outside, but cares deeply for the one she loves...

My chemistry lab went fine today...
For the first time, I have nothing to complain about except for Valerie's constant shrieking and babbling about Twilight...
The only way to stop her is to threaten her that I will the spoil the ending...
She still has 3 more chapters to read...
It was an individual work so I was able to concentrate on my own...
It was still about identifying cations and same procedure with the mixing chemicals and then centrifuge...
I finished around 113o so I decided to wait for my best friend, Keziah till 12 so that we can go home together...
While waiting, I managed to finish the prologue of my fanfic and start chapter 1...
I'm still not sure if I'll post it here...
I don't have the confidence and courage...
I'll see how it will progress...

Keziah wasn't replying to my mails so I was worried if she left her phone or not yet read it...
So I decided to just wait outside her room...
And as soon as I arrived outside their room, the door opened and she was there, going out of the room...
What a great timing...
How did we do that?
Anyway, we talked about Twilight until we parted...
We planned to watch the movie with our friends on December 1 which is a holiday here so no school and everyone should be able to go...
Now we just have to inform everyone...

I was doing fine today not until I got home...
I opened my email and found that the home work I've been waiting since Tuesday has just arrived...
It was a 5 question problem set and has to be passed tomorrow...
I started to panic...
How am I supposed to finish it?
Not to mention I didn't understand a bit his lectures...
I tried answering it but I was too sleep deprived that my eyes couldn't keep up anymore...
So I took a nap and asked our helper to wake me up at 53o pm...
I woke up by myself at exactly 530, only to find out that my brother is using my laptop again without permission...
I kept it open before I sleep because I was downloading Last friends...
I hate it when my brother does that...
I don't like him touching my things especially my laptop...
I still couldn't get over the fact that my other brother broke my personal computer June last year and I lost all the precious anime that I downloaded...
I hope he buys his own laptop...
Where the hell does he spend his money?
He's already working but he doesn't give his share in the house...
Just a week after his pay day, he's already asking me or my dad to lend him money...
Yeah, that's right...
He's asking me, the student getting allowance from our dad, to LEND him money, the working salary man...
What's up with that???!!!
It makes me mad...

Anyway, back to the home work...
I started working on it again when I woke up...
I managed to answer the first 3 questions and half of the 4th question...
I'm not sure about my answers though...
But I'm guessing it doesn't matter...
As long as you tried and you wrote something, our professor will give points...
Actually, I think I can still work on the last question but I gave up...
I can't think right...
I also forgot about the other home work we had in that subject...
Good thing, Matthew reminded me...
It was a simple research about the application of diodes and transistors...
Copying and Pasting will do the trick for that...
Does it seem like I'm cheating?
I managed to finish everything I have to do, well, excluding the problem set, but I don't care anymore...

I don't want to go to school tomorrow...
I have a lot to do...
I have powerpoint presentation on substrates, role playing as a team leader on the issue of package delamination, nanofiber and mic-d experiment, passing of home works and research paper...
Another reason is that I'm commuting to school tomorrow...
There's no car to give me a ride nor pick me up...
It will be sooo tiring...
But I can't skip school for the same reason...
I'll miss alot...
I'll be fine...
I can do this...
I have to fight the laziness...

My mom was mailing me the whole day...
She was so bored in Baguio City...
She couldn't go out becasue she's not familiar with it and there's really no place to go aside from the mall...
She gave up after lunch and decide to go to the mall all by herself...
She shopped for clothes and stuff...
She couldn't do that here in Manila so I hope she enjoyed it...
Also, she had steak for lunch and dinner and she kept repeating that...
You don't have to keep saying you had steak, okay?
I know that already and I'm already jealous enough...
Today, she met with my childhood friends who were studying there...
They visited my mom in the hotel and had a good chat...
It's been a long time since I saw them and I really miss them...
Tomorrow, my mom is meeting her half-sister who lives there...
They'll be hanging out maybe all day...
Please enjoy yourself, Mom...

To end this post, I'm giving good news...
The best news I had today...
I got the results for the second quiz of my chemistry laboratory...
And guess what I got...
A 145/150...
Yay...I was so happy...
It's been a long time since I got a really high score...
I think I was the highest...
It was more than enought to compensate for my failed experiment last meeting in which I got a score way way below than the passing (27/50)...
But I don't care about that experiment anymore...
I was really really happy to see my hard work paid off...
I couldn't hide happiness and kept smiling the whole class...
Now that I think about it, maybe that's the reason why I didn't get pissed off today...
Well, that's it for today...
Gotta prepare myself for tomorrow...
Ja...

* I forgot to mention my dragon died AGAIN...
I'm giving up taking care of them...
I'm just wasting their lives...
I'm contented now with pichie and ayachan...

Lonely + Twilight + Wishlist...

I feel lonely right now...
My dad went to Baguio city for a convention and he took my mom with him...
So my parents aren't here now...
They left around 9 this morning and will be back on Sunday...
I really want to go with them but I can't be absent from class...
I have an experiment in chemistry lab tomorrow, role playing, reporting, quiz and experiment on Saturday...
One more thing that pisses me off is that our department was supposed to attend that convention too...
(I think I already mentioned it in my previous posts)
But our student council representative pissed our faculty in charge so she did not permitted it...
How can adults be so childish...

I've started reading Twilight today...
It will take me a looong time to finish it...
I'm still busy with school and other things...

I've decided to post my wishlist...
There's nothing wrong with wishing right...

1. 80 Gb, 120 Gb or 250 Gb external hard disk
2. 512 RAM
3. Notebook Cooling Pad
4. New and smaller mouse
5. Ipod nano holder
6. New pants/clothes
7. Grades 2.00 and above for all my subjects this term
8. New school bag
9. NEWS' Color Album or Pacific Album
10. Christmas Eve with my whole family
11. Skechers' Rubber Shoes
12. Spongecola's New Album

Wishlist...

Who is Keziah Kiss B. Diola???

Today is her special day...
I have nothing to offer to her than just my greetings...
So I'm making this special post for everyone to meet this fantastic person...

So, who is Keziah Kiss B. Diola?
She is my first college friend who eventually became my best friend...
I met her on the very first day of our college life...
I was sitting outside our room waiting for my class...
Then a little girl asked me if that room is W408...
That time, I thought "We're in the same class. She looks like she's lost and doesn't know what to do."
So I answered yes and invited her to sit beside me...
From that point on, we've always been together...
She would wait for me in the underpass and we walk to school together...
After class, we would go to the mall before going home...
Even if we're not classmates anymore in the next terms, we still wait for each other and go home together...
Even after I changed my major, we're still friends and see each other...
Until now, after 4 years, we're still together...

I think it was around 2nd year college when we started calling each other bez...
Before we noticed it, we've already become best friends...
I'm so lucky to have her because she's always at my side and supports me in everything I do...
I hope we continue to be friends even after graduation...

Keziah Kiss B. Diola...
She lives in Cainta, Rizal which is far from our school...
She goes to with her parents because their workplace is near our school...
The eldest of 4 siblings...
A generous "ate" who always takes care of her younger siblings...
Even if she is the "ate", she is the smallest among the siblings...
A loving, respectful and obedient daughter...
A good friend...
The smallest in our group (in terms of height)...lol
A friend who would accompany you anywhere and everywhere if she can...
A friend who would never leave you...
Someone who easily cries...
She is picked the most in the group...
She is teased a LOT about here height...
She never or seldom gets angry...
But she's scary when she's mad...
Even if she's mad with you, she won't leave you behind and ignore you...
She would just keep quiet...
She doesn't talk much...
She has a soft voice that I can't hear sometimes even if she's so close to me...
(or is it just because I'm deaf and I don't clean my ears hahahaha)
But if you get to know her, she really is talkative, more like urusai...
She has the image of a petite, feminine girl...
She's always wearing pants...
I haven't seen her in a skirt...
She dresses very simple...
She always wear footwear with heels to hide her height...
She always wear her hair in a ponytail...
Her favorite color is violet...
She's not fond of jewelries...
(Speaking of jewelries, you're not wearing anymore the bracelet I gave you, where is it?)
She loves korean and taiwanese drama...
I'm not sure but I think she's into Fahrenheit after watching Romantic Princess and Hana Kimi Taiwan...
She doesn't talk much about them though...
I tried influencing her with NEWS but no effect...
What should I do to get you into NEWS???
I showed her a picture of Tegoshi and she said he's a girl...
Laughed my heart out so much that time...
She likes to sing a LOT and she's pretty good at it...
But we still make fun of her, we're so bad hehehe...
She's always worried about her grades...
She hates being ignored, left behind and alone...
She likes sports especially volleyball...
She's an M...
She doesn't let what others say get into her...
Even if she cries easily, I know she's a strong girl...
(Isn't this a bit contradicting?)
Hmmm...what else?
I think I've said everything I know about her...

To sum it all up...
Keziah Kiss B. Diola is a wonderful person ^_^

again,

Happy Happy Happy 20th Birthday bez Keziah!!!

My Bestfriend, Keziah's Birthday...

Today is the 19th of November and the 20th birthday of my best friend, Keziah...

Exactly because I can't buy them with money...
Treasures that can be expressed by feelings...
I'll say it in words, "Happy Birthday"...
Without feeling embarrassed at exactly 12 midnight...

For being born...
For being able to meet you...
That I can be by your side now...
Thank you...
Keziah's HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
A magical, special day that happens only once a year...

Today is the momentous once-a-year anniversary...
Of you who is the most important in the world...
Yet another one in beauty...

The piling up of years...
Is the multiplication of memories...
That's why I'll send beautiful words...
Only to you, look!...

I'm happy that in the many thousands and hundred millions...
We could have such a miracle as our meeting...
And be this near...
I'll sing for you...

Because you're here I can laugh...
and be more honest than usual today...
An ordinary day to the rest of the world...
Fishing as per normal, yet...
To me even the taste of the atmosphere has a special flavor...

I especially want to meet your smile...
Bye-bye to grimaces...
With the extent of my power, I'll send you my love...
How many times have you cried up till now...
The happiness where we can laugh now is safe...
Today's HAPPY BIRTHDAY where we can be together...
I'll sing for you...

I didn't leave you here alone...
Definitely next year and the year after too...
I'll go to meet you on the same day...

A present from God...
Keziah's HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
All the best for your future...

*credited by saladesu

Happy Happy Happy 2oth Birthday Bez Keziah!!!
May you have many many more birthdays to come ^_^

Personality...

Your Personality Profile

You are dependable, popular, and observant. Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness. In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do. You are unique, creative, and expressive. You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while. And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Do You Hold a Grudge?

You Sometimes Hold a Grudge

You aren't exactly vengeful, but you're not going to forget when someone wrongs you. And while you'll forgive the small things, you don't hand out too many second chances to people who really screw up.

Do You Hold a Grudge?

You are a Part Time Braniac...

You're a Part Time Brainiac

No doubt about it, you have the potential for big brain power. But potential doesn't get you to genius. It's going to take some work. Like most smart people, you enjoy a good intellectual challenge every now and then. But you do tend to shy away from anything difficult, frustrating, or complex. Push yourself to think, learn, and explore more... even when it feels bad. You have the capacity to solve amazingly difficult problems. You just need to let yourself do it.

Are You a Brainiac?

The Ultimate Color Test...

The Ultimate Color Test

When you are at peace, you are: Giving and unselfish When you are moved to act, you are: Unorthodox and idealistic When you are inspired, you are: Creative and productive When your life is perfectly balanced, you are: Totally in the moment Your life's purpose is:

Asking me for help in a subject I don't know + Horror Story part 2...

On to the happy and scary(?) post...

After my very exhausting class, I still stayed at school...
I need the signature of our subject chairperson for the LCD projector borrower's application...
Also, Matthew asked for help in his thermodynamics class...
Good thing, my bestfriend Keziah was with me...
The subject chair still has her class and Matthew is stuck in traffic...
So really no choice but to wait...

It's been weeks since me and Keziah saw each other...
We updated what's happening in our lives and had a great time...
I just realized today that the release of News' Color Album and Keziah's birthday is ON THE SAME DAY...
I've been busy lately that I didn't noticed that...
I asked my bez, as what we call each other, what she wants about a few nights ago and she said nothing...
But a little later, she said she wants to watch Twilight...
And so, we're going to treat her in the day we watch it...
Ummm...maybe next week...
It's kinda hard for the group to gather because we have different schedules...
But for my bez' birthday, we'll try our best ^_^
For the baby of the group, we'll make it a happy and enjoyable day...

The other night, I got to talk to Cis and Allan on yahoo messenger...
We haven't seen Cis for ages and we've been looking for him...
Finally, he told us where he is...
He's in their province, Pampanga and he has dropped from school AGAIN!
He is now working on their fishpond...
He wants to go back to school because he realized that working is so hard and staying in the province is TOO boring...
He misses us and the life in the city...
Oh well, Ganbatte ne, Cis...

Back to the main topic, a while later Matthew arrived...
He was asking me to help me with his home work in thermodynamics...
I though it's something that was discussed before in lower chem subjects...
Something about balancing equations...
Balancing chemical equations is easy so I said yes...
But when I saw the other examples, how come there are charged electrons in the equation...
I haven't encountered it in my previous subjects...
I tried understanding it but I can't...
Matthew kept on cheering me that I can do it because I'm good at those things...
But I really can't...
How am I supposed to understand a topic that I have yet to learn and that even the student himself can't understand?!
Oh, Matthew, I'm not that smart...
There are things that I can't do...
Well, at least not yet...Sorry...

I gave him my theories on where the charged electrons come from...
But we eventually gave up...
It's now all up to YOU...
So I just asked him to continue his series of scary stories...
Right in the middle of the story telling, I felt something on my right side...
When I looked, bez was snuggling on me...
She was getting scared...
It was so cute...hahahahaha

The story goes like this...
Warning: It's not that scary at all and there's no punch line or anything...

A woman went on a vacation and checked-in in hotel. On her first night, she can't sleep because she could hear noises from the room beside hers. She could feel the floor shaking like someone's been jumping up and down. The next day, she complained on the front desk about it. But the hotel staff told he that there's no such thing. And so she continued with her vacation. After lunch, she wanted to take a nap so she went to her room. Again, she could hear noises coming from the other side of the wall. Even after asking the hotel staff about it, the noises still continued so she decided to check it out herself. She stood at the front door of the room and listened first. The noises still continued. She found a key hole below the door knob and she peeked inside the room. From the hole, she could see a normal hotel room with bed, tables and everything. There's just one thing that bothered her. She could also see a girl with reddish eyes jumping up and down on the bed. It looks like the girl is having fun playing with the bed and disturbing other people. The woman thought, "they said there's no such thing, how come there's a girl in there?". Then,a room service employee passed by the woman and asked her if there's anything wrong. The woman said that the girl who is staying in that room is disturbing her and she can't rest well. The employee said it's impossible because that room has been locked for years and is not available for use. She decided to just ignore everything and have a nice nap. Come night time, when it's time for a good night's sleep, she can hear noises again. For one last time, she went to the other to check it out. She peeked into the hole and saw nothing but the color red. She just kept looking at it, then noticed that it's moving farther and farther away from the hole. Then, she realized that she's not looking at the color red anymore but a girl's pale face with blood shot red eyes looking straight at her. After that, the woman lost consciousness. She learned the story about that room the next day when she was about to check out. In that room, a girl has been raped and killed. It's also said that the murderers took out her eyeballs and that's the reason for the blood shot red eyes.

*Sorry I suck at writing stories...
Will do better next time...

I fail at getting mad...

I'm sooo tired, hungry and sleepy when I got home around 3 pm...
We did qualitative analysis of Group II and III cations which has a super long procedure...
And we have to do it twice because of the group work then individual work...
My group mates were late so I started on my own...
I had a hard time doing it...
Even when my group mates arrived, I still did it on my own...
They did not helped me...
I was getting frustrated because even after 2 and a half hours, it's still not finished...
And I still have to my individual work which has the same long procedure as the group work...
I finished it aroung 1030 am...
Then, I proceeded with my own work...
I may look calm on the outside but on the inside, I was already panicking...
I have to finish it by 12 noon...
I managed to finish my work by 12 noon but the preliminary data sheet for the group work was not yet done...
I still have to do it because no one in my group cared to write it...
Grrr...So mad, annoyed, irritated and frustrated...
Our group is the only one left in the room and our professor already left...
But she told me to just submit the reports in the faculty room...
While writing the report, Valerie kept on bugging...
She kept asking me if she did the right thing...
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW?!
I'm not the one who worked with that unknown solution and the results for each of us are different...
Then, she started mumbling that she has a class at 12 noon and she's already late...
She keeps on telling me to hurry up...
That's when I snapped...
(It's only a mild snap, a small shout)...
I said I'm not yet finished with the GROUP report and is she wants to go, then leave...
I'll just pass everything together...
And then she left...
Another thing that pissed me off is that my other group mate, Evan...
He was the last one to arrive around past 9 am...
He didn't do ANYTHING...
He just sat on his chair chatting with his friend...
He did not help with anything...
And he has the guts to leave first and did not even say anything...
Even though he's way older than us doesn't mean he can do anything he wants and he can push around his underclassmen!!!
He should've at least told me he was already leaving...
I'm really grateful to my other group mates, Elaine and Chris especially Elaine...
They both helped me clean up and waited for me...
I felt guilty for Elaine because she has a class but she stayed and said that she's not attending it so that we can finish everything...
Chris returned the apparatus we borrowed in which my ID was used as collateral...
Two micro test tubes were missing so I won't be able to get my ID...
He was the one who looked for it, mailing our other classmates if they have it or if they
broke them...
In the end, we managed to find it and my ID was returned...

I totally suck at getting mad...
I'm having a hard time expressing my feelings of anger...
I'm sensitive to other people's feelings...
I'm very careful with my words...
I always think before I act...
Even if I'm so pissed off, I put up with it...
Or is it that I'm just scared to be disliked?...
Whenever I do or say something bad, I instantly regret it then take it back...
I don't like hurting other people...
You might say I'm a such a goody...
But that's what I really feel...
I easily forget being mad anyway so there's no need to make it big...
It's better to be hurt...
No one knows anyways...

Ne, is it better to tell what you feel honestly even if it means hurting others or just keep it to yourself and put up with it???

*sighs*
This was supposed to be happy post...
What happened, Barbie?
I'll just do another post about what happened after my class...
Ja...

On the Way Home...

Yesterday on our class, I was the last one to went out of the room...
They though I'm scared of the dark so they played a little prank on me...
Our class were the only one left in the building...
They switched off the light and started making weird sounds, calling my name in ghostly voices...
Too bad, I'm not scared of the dark nor of ghosts...
I don't have the ability to see nor feel them...
I want to experience it though...
Don-don was so nice that he waited for me at the door of the room and made sure nothing and no one was left behind...

On the way to the gate, Matthew suddenly started talking about horror stories...
He said he has a lot of them...
So he started telling it to us...
My parents are already waiting outside so he has to make it quick...
The story goes like this...

There is a couple that can't have a child...
So they went to Obando, danced and wished for a child...
Then they went to a fortune teller...
the fortune teller said that they'll be having their first child soon...
She's going to be a white, pretty and smart girl...
When the mother gave birth...
The daughter was nothing like they expected...
The complete opposite of the description the fortune teller gave...
Still, the couple spoiled their child, gave everything she wants...
And on her 3rd birthday, the father asked what she wants...
The daughter said she wanted to go to Baguio City...
Baguio City is on top of a mountain so the road to travel is dangerous...
On the way there, the daughter said she wanted to pee...
There's no gasoline station nor toilets nearby...
So she settled peeing on the side road...
While peeing, the mother pushed her daughter and fell on the cliff...
The daughter died and was forgotten...
Soon after, the couple had another daughter which is white, pretty and smart...
The finally had the daughter they wanted...
On her 3rd birthday, the dad asked her what she wants...
The daughter said she wanted to go to Baguio City...
The same as their first daughter...
Despite their hesitation, they still went and the same thing happened...
The daughter wanted to pee at the same place their first daughter died...
But this time the daughter has something to say to her mother...
The daughter said, "Mom, don't push me again, ok?"...

Hai, the end...
It was predictable to me...
As soon as Matthew said they had their second daughter...
I've already guessed the ending and it turned out I was right...
Maybe I've heard that story somewhere...

I'm not scared of real ghosts and I love horror stories...
But I'm a scaredy cat when it comes to human made horror houses...
I don't know why...
Maybe real life humans are scarier than the dead ones...

Anyway, when we went out of the gate...
I immediately saw my parents...
They were having a date at the walls in front of my school...
Hahaha...They look like teenagers, walking around the walls...
Well, I'm happy they're getting along well ^_^

Also, looks like my brothers are getting along well now...
My eldest brother, Ray, asked my other brother, Lan, to help him with his model who's going to join a beauty contest...
My brother, Ray, is attending a party so he won't be able to accompany his model, so he asked Kuya Lan instead...
The good thing is they're not fighting anymore...
They used to fight a lot...
Oh, correct that one...
We used to fight a lot even about very small things...
Just being near each other is so irritating...
Kuya Lan even left the house June last year when they fought...

I hope my family stays like this forever...